I'm never quite ever happy. I'm always missing that something that makes me whole or wondering when it will all fall apart. My mood worsens each spring and summer as that hole deepens. I have found myself very sick these times - I've been hospitlized more often as the years go by.

Am I alone?

[basicgoodness]

I have not been hospitalized but I can relate to not feeling whole. These days I don't know what is keeping me upright and functioning. I say upright, but I do spend quite a bit of time lying down. I am tired of feeling and living this way. I see no light at the end of the tunnel.

[Bird Feeder]

I have been hospitalized recently and could probably use it again. I am like you with cycling recurring depression. I do ECT every 2 weeks and am about to ask for it more often although I am not quite sure it is still working? I wish you could find something to hang unto that would make you feel happiness but I know it is hard. Good Luck and peace to you.

[Fizzyo]

You're not alone. I have been depressed to a greater or lesser extent for decades. Years ago summer was the worst time Feb to Oct. Now it is the late winter running up to my birthday. I try to hang on to the thought that part of the year is less difficult.

[Fuzzybear]

Not alone......