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Member Since Jul 2011
Location: Seattle
Posts: 85
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There's no hope for me.
The last time I sought out help, I was caught in the ego issues of some smug young "professional" who gave me an ultimatum: invol at a state institution or be seen at a crisis center he was financially involved with. I went with the crisis center. When I explained to the crisis counselor that I was coerced to be there, they apologized and admitted that I should have never been in that position. This all began when I admitted aloud that I am living in existential hell. I have no reason to live. I can't be satisfied with what little I have. No medication has ever worked. All I have ever asked for out of life was to love and be loved, and this has been denied me at every turn. I don't want to live (I am not actively suicidal, however.) I can't admit this to anyone because that threat of involuntary institutionalization hovers over my head; I cannot be truthful about my pain because they'll lock me away and throw out the key. I don't know why I felt like saying anything, here of all places. Maybe I just need to get this out of me before it eats me up. Hell, I think it is eating me up; my stomach has been hurting for weeks now, badly. My doctors won't listen, and I don't want to tell them because they would just throw useless pills at me. I need help, but help isn't there. It's not help, it's hell. Anyway, I'm sorry for saying anything. I'm completely useless. __________________ If you want to live the American Dream, move to Finland. |
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Member Since Jan 2015
Location: UK
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Hey if you can't say it here, where CAN you say it?
I really feel for you! __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary. |
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Member Since Nov 2002
Location: Cave.
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#3
I feel for you
I regret you crossed paths with a smug, young "professional" with ego issues... I did too... I fear they are all too common in this field If I ever do consult a therapist again, I would make sure they have experience and a heart, both of which were lacking in this person __________________ |
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Member Since Apr 2017
Location: San Francisco Bay Area
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Also the pressure that is put on people now a days. Everyone has to be perfect, educated, work out, high powered job, fancy house, cars, it's endless.... If you read this please answer me. I joined this site today because I want to connect with people that suffer the way I do. |
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