oh grief

boomerango · Mar 08, 2021, 09:59 AM

I said good by to my dog, holding him not 3 feet from where he was born. He was the child I could never have for all of his 12 years. Especially after months of comfort care, so much of me was with him, and died with him. How could I not be prepared for that, when I've been there before? How could I not know how much of myself he gave me? Why is this surprising? I deeply grieve for him, for my lost self. The claws of my depression knead me, take my breath, my patience, my body. I will survive this. I miss hugs more than anything.

I come here when my life is dark. thank you.

MickeyCheeky · Mar 08, 2021, 11:59 AM

i think it is often hard to let go of a Friend, even if he/she appens to be a dog or some other kind of animal. It will take time but you can do this. Try to do something nice for yourself. i Hope and Pray that you will feel better soon. Please do not give up. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @boomerango, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

pffngh · May 23, 2021, 06:02 PM

I know this post is a few months old, but you expressed the pain of your loss in such a beautiful, heartfelt way that I had to reply.

I'm so sorry for your terrible, wrenching loss. Grieving is different for everyone, but I do hope the pain has eased somewhat since your post.

My dog died in December, and your words have helped me see that I am not alone in feeling this particular pain. Thank you.