I have not dated or even thought of dating a man since 2005. Prior to that, there were some relationships, usually lasting a couple of years. In between relationships would be long periods of fear and mistrust. I have not had one relationship where men were honest, trustworthy, heck even a couple were neglective, abusive (I was not hit but walls were punched), or, as in the last reelationship, he passed on an STI to me.

I have no trust at all. Any thought of physical contact with a non-related male repulses me. If a man even in humour, makes any sexual overtones, I want to hit him. (I don't but I feel like it).

I don't know how to get the trust back in relationships. My immediate thought is "Men just want sex and will lie to get it. You want sex, pay a prostitute, a--hole." I know that is not healthy.

I know this off topic, and I didn't want to start a new thread for this. I thought this is funny, but cute in a way. Did any of you ever see this before? I never even heard of it before today. I need one of these, just kidding. The real thing is much better. Here is the link:

http://www.google.com/search?q=boyfr...ient=firefox-a

[needfixing]

so sorry you had to deal with the creeps (((hugs)))
its good to know that your respecting yourself.
i think its ok for you to be choosey, careful, and being honest with yourself.
in the future if a guy should ask you out, take it slow, get to know him, and set boundaries.

Thank you, need. I just hope I don't set boundaries to the point that i scare them off.

Can anybody recommend a book or website or something for me to lean on with specifically datin trust issues?