chemical pregnancy woes

Im trying to understand How I should feel about a chemical pregnancy. I just felt pregnant, I took a test and had a faint positive! I was going through so many emotions -like How on earth can my wages afford a baby!? But overall iwas happy. I told a couple of my closest friends but couldnt tell my boyfriend that day. I spent aaaall my time thinking about it. Then a few days later I bled. I do have quite a long cycle, nearly 40 days so if it was shorter it probably would have passed me oblivious. But it appears to be a "chemical pregnancy " which somehow I'm a bit sad. It wasn't planned but now I wish I was and can't stop thinking How unfair it is. I guess it's my own fault for getting an early test and not waiting. I shouldn't be sad but I saw my life change in front of me now it's turned back
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(((((((Jess95)))))))
It is cruel that it is enough time to wonder about the possibilities for the future and then to have those possibilities taken away, for me, there was a real sense of loss. Take care of yourself and know that though right now it was not meant to be, know that there will come a time. Hang in there.

I'm so sorry to hear about the distressing time your going through, unfortunately I can relate. I had just switched my birth control and my period didn't arrive. I was about 2 wks late and feeling bloating, so i plucked up the courage to do a pregnancy test. I was shocked when it told me I was pregnant and re-read the instructions. That was when I saw the small print saying if my body was getting ready for my period over the next 24+hrs that it could give a false positive. I rushed out and brought several more tests all different makes and all said the same warning in the small print. The new tests then confirmed that I wasn't pregnant and I was gutted, especially when i got my period the next day. It took a little while but I managed to let the disappointment go and move forward. I continued taking my bc because practically a baby wasn't a good idea at that stage in my life. But maybe this false negative has open your eyes to something you feel your missing in your life. Maybe it's a good thing, you can make any necessary changes to your life so that a child will be an option. Big hugs