This guy in my life who happens to be my colleague and once upon a time good friend.
We moved out of friend zone area, a big mistake definitely. I always liked hanging out with him but not really making out with him. I was going over making out sessions because I don't have any other friends and I liked being with him. But, when we don't like something we would one day take out the frustration it causes on someone. That is exactly what I did. I took all the frustration out on him blaming him for my misery. This guy is cheating on his wife who hasn't been faithful to him.

We broke up then from both whatever relationship we had and even friendship. I'm completely alone now, no friends at all... except one online friend who stays in other continent.

I think about him all the time. It has been 6 months since our last personal interaction, we do have to talk in office where he doesn't meet my eyes ever.
I miss him, I want to hang out with him again. I don't want to ask anything to him because I don't want to make out with him again. I've tried all sorts of distractions, but I can't help but wish he comes back.

Please help me to get him out of my mind.

[healingme4me]

Do you have any hobbies, outside the home to place your energy into, to keep you busy and distracted?

Even to join a social club, that keeps you from being alone, online and dwelling on him?

Doesn't sound like a catch, cheating on his wife regardless of his justification.

I keep myself busy but he stays at back of my mind. And as soon as it is free like sleeping time, he pops out from background.
He is a jerk... then why do I miss him?

[Jan1212]

I also have lingering feelings from guys years ago. It's normal, for many of my relationships I've moved on though. It's hard for me to not be in a relationship, but my current has been stagnant for 2 years now. I'm experiencing the same thing- I might try to make friends with women or coworkers when I start working. I miss intimacy though, it's hard cause it's all or nothing with guys it's hard to control myself, maybe u want what u can't have?

[healingme4me]

How long has it been since breaking up?

Originally Posted by healingme4me

How long has it been since breaking up?

Actually wasn't a relationship ever. So, no breakup. Just stopped interacting 6 months back

[healingme4me]

Originally Posted by Problem

I keep myself busy but he stays at back of my mind. And as soon as it is free like sleeping time, he pops out from background.
He is a jerk... then why do I miss him?

Maybe, it's less missing him, as a person and more trying to resolve what it is about him that lingers? The positives and negatives, so that you can sort more clearly, future relationships? Knowing what to look for or watch out for.

Originally Posted by Problem

Actually wasn't a relationship ever. So, no breakup. Just stopped interacting 6 months back