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Old Nov 07, 2016, 01:00 PM
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I've struggled with anxiety and depression for a long long time, however I have been doing well for the last few years. I feel myself spiraling again. I lost of pregnancy a couple of weeks ago. It was my first and my husband and I were so excited! Shortly after the positive home test, we found out it was abnormal, and waited for a week for a confirmation. We were told it was most likely an etopic pregnancy. I went in for surgery, they couldn't find any evidence of pregnancy, but found a lot of other things wrong.

I was diagnosed with endometriosis 4 years ago and the surgery confirmed it has spread and it will continue to spread. I was told by a dr 3 years ago, I should get pregnant sooner than later and now I am kicking myself. In the last two years it has increased and now is probably effecting my fertility.

I didn't want to ever be pregnant, anything like that... my husband and I were in the process of foster care licensing when I just wanted my own biological child as well as doing foster care. I kinda wish we had never tried and we could just continue on as before....
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Old Nov 07, 2016, 05:30 PM
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I am so, so sorry for your loss, pinkestpink.

I have lost three pregnancies in my lifetime. For me, the confusion was terrible. Was I wrong to allow pregnancy...was the loss for the best...what is the universe trying to tell me...all on top of the terrible grief of losing the pregnancies.

I have pretty much accepted that none of the big questions can be answered, and only today fully lived.
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Old Nov 07, 2016, 06:10 PM
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I'm sorry for your loss.
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Old Nov 08, 2016, 01:46 AM
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I understand you your feelings. I too suffer from endometriosis. My Dr said your insights are glued together now. It took me several miscarriages and D&C over 6 years, to finally have a baby. I had her at 32. At 30 I had lost all hope. Miracles do happen I would have adopted a child defiantly. I had already checked into it. Good luck sweetie.
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Old Nov 17, 2016, 12:46 PM
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i lost my baby earlier this year so i know what you all are going through maybe not exactly as you do but i understand the feeling of loss .i find it hard to cope sometimes but i know my babys safe and i will always love him/her
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