daily check in for women

I'm ordering breakfast from Dunkin Donuts. Got a blueberry donut coming and a breakfast sandwich along with iced cappuccino. I can't wait. Food has been a comfort to me lately. I'm pretty stressed. All the time, stressed.

turns out the sink was easier to fix than I intended, and it got done yesterday so no more leaks on to the floor which is good (so no more change of me slipping)

showered today.

body didn't provide much for me in the way of movement so it was quite painfull. ugg

needed too though: was quite incontinent this morning. came out of the blue, just like that.

no real plans for today: just have mcdonalds later which I am looking forward too.

it is cooler today too. I still have my fan on, but not sure I am going to need the cooling spray today

I had a busy morning, but my afternoon was sad. I felt all alone. I didn't hear from anyone today. That's what typically happens. No one cares. I had bad thoughts this evening. I know if I could sleep I would feel better.

Glad you got your sink fixed. That's got to feel good. I hope you enjoyed your McDonald's. I really love them. I like the breakfast meals.

yesterday I had a mcdonalds. it was lovely, in fact: the best meal I've had all week (sad really, but that's how it is)

feeling mainly depressed today, but the good bits are that it's a lot cooler (the heatwave is weakening which is great news for my pain), and I've done some self-care. eat fruit salad, drink water, clean clothes..

I have 2 wasps in the house today.

it is very disturbing, because I am alergic to wasp stings (I go in to shock)

thankfully, they are behind a closed door (I made sure they stayed in the lounge with the window open so they can fly out)

it is still scary though

had a shower today, my fruit salad, currently drinking some flavoured water (orange and peach flavour)

feeling okay (with the obvious acception of the wasps)

I'm doing Okay. I'm a little tired. I'm worried about my cat, who's been sick. And I'm concerned about a few other things. I need a job but I can't really work. Emotionally I'm not able to handle it. So I'm trying to sell art and music. And I'm thinking of publishing some books.

update on the wasp situation: they are still very much alive!.

when I walked in to the lounge this morning, I couldn't see them or hear them, but when I turned on the light I saw that they were hiding in the light switch!. I ran out their as fast as I could go. such a scary situation!. and I generally thought they had gone yesterday

new week, same ****

plans for today: nothing, and unless anything changes, it's that all week.

Hope the wasps go soon raging vortex.
Feeling foggy today. Headache is coming on.

the wasps are gone.

yesterday it rained, and of course: wasps hate the rain (wasps are also quite stupid)

so they flew out of the window soaking their wings

ah well: at least they are gone, and I think that's the last I'll see of any for a while (we're meant to be getting early fall storms!)

nothing today, though I probably don't need to say that. this is my life we're talking about.

I have just finished responding to a survey for a friend's course she is doing

it really tested my patience... it was over 100 questions, and by question 10 or 11, I was like why am I doing this?

but I did do it and so now she has my response

today it is raining, and trust me, we really need it after the heatwave we've been having (yes guys, england has heatwaves too. lol)

doing.... absolutely nothing

currently on the forum, emails open, listening to music

I just ordered my groceries. It didn't go so well. And now I'm just waiting on the bug lady to show up. It's getting late. I'm trying to be positive.

another **** week at an end.

done so little again. defenetly makes me wonder the point

and I'm struggling with my looks today. I hate my looks, I hate my body, and I hate the fact that almost every bone in it is useless and shutting down (or that's what it feels like)

I journaled this morning, which was nice. I plan to read in bed later.

wish I still had my journal.

or do I... I don't know. hmm

I did enjoy writing in it but it got a bit repetitive

feeling a bit angry.

today I got a letter, and the person miss printed my last name

when I say miss printed it, I mean really mis printed. got it spectacularly wrong, and not just that, either

the last name they used just happened to be the last name of one of my previous abusers

can't say I'm too happy about that, either- and this place really needs correcting (I'll ring when I'm less angry about it)

and less in pain. getting ready for today was beyond painful

sleep = 0 (up all night with pain and flashbacks)

body = painful (very, very, very, painful)

plans for the day?

**** all, but later I have that new recipie to try (the grilled lemon chicken one). I hope it's yummy!

Tried to play World of Warcraft with a friend today. But found out it's not possible because he is on the European servers and I am on the American servers. It was a real disappointment. Hope everyone is well.

I really enjoyed the lemon chicken recipie. honestly, it was quite small, but the most important thing was you could taste the lemmon.. I suppose it tasted like chicken nuggets just with a lemmon flavor

pretty sluggish week. really bad body pain, 4 (4) panic attacks, and litirally 0 rest. my body wouldn't let me

today I have had my shower (so even more pain), and doing nothing at all- later ordering mcdonalds though which I am really looking forward too- mostly because their's not been 1 night this week where I have actually felt full and I'm looking forward to a full stomach

my mcdonalds was great. I got a full tummy, but it still didn't stop me from going through 2 packs of jaffa cakes (12 in a bag) which I'd had arive earlier that afternoon

up all night in intense body pain, and looks like for the majority of the day that is how it will be

currently sat in the dark (with the acception of the forum screen)

in dead silence

Dog sitting for the weekend, but even though I love animals I just feel like I want to be left completely alone. I did take them for a walk earlier and it was nice to be out for a while.
Had toast when I got back and was wondering why toasters never seem to have a countdown timer.

I haven't been feeling too great, been tired and achy and feeling emotional. I should be able to relax today though so I hope that is helpful.

it is nice to see you in this section of the forum.

welcome!

Thanks, raging vortex, that made me smile lol

I slept 18 hours last night. I guess I was recovering from a long day of chores. I woke up with a migraine. I think because I didn't have my coffee on time. I'm doing better now. Will rest and read all day.