[callingforthesun]

every month before I get my period i basically fall apart and **** up my life...its like I turn into a different person...I get moody, depressed, insanely anxious, angry, feel totally out of control and just want to self medicate. I have so much trouble regulating my emotions it's like I just want to give up on life...this has been happening forever and I'm ready to give up on my relationship because I can't deal with the guilt of putting my partner through this every month...I have tried meds, vitamins and supplements, meditation, DBT, CBT, therapy...my Dr suggested switching my birth control to a pill that makes my period stop...I feel like I'm running out of options and I'm losing my mind....I can't live like this anymore...I seriously just want to isolate and drink my life away.

[AspiringAuthor]

I think your dr has a sound plan - try that.

[seesaw]

Originally Posted by callingforthesun

every month before I get my period i basically fall apart and **** up my life...its like I turn into a different person...I get moody, depressed, insanely anxious, angry, feel totally out of control and just want to self medicate. I have so much trouble regulating my emotions it's like I just want to give up on life...this has been happening forever and I'm ready to give up on my relationship because I can't deal with the guilt of putting my partner through this every month...I have tried meds, vitamins and supplements, meditation, DBT, CBT, therapy...my Dr suggested switching my birth control to a pill that makes my period stop...I feel like I'm running out of options and I'm losing my mind....I can't live like this anymore...I seriously just want to isolate and drink my life away.

I understand what you're going through. Inhave PMDD and adenomyosis, and I was treated like I was insane until I finally got it dx'd. Although some people still treat me like I'm just crazy. I wonder if it's something other than PMDD though. If you're already on BC, and have tried other meds, it really should have responded to that and at least gotten a little better. Changing your bc to stopping your period could definitely help. But if you're on BC and it's not helping already, that's suspicious. What other medications are you referring to that you've tried? Anti depressants? I found them to be useless myself. Now I take BC, and I've done cbt to help me deal with pmdd each month, and also just to track my period and recognize when my hormones are starting to kick in and cause issues.

Have you had a pelvic/vaginal ultrasound? If you have endometriosis or andenomyosis, that could also be a culprit and require management.

Dont drink your life away. This is not you. It's a medical condition. Continue seeking answers. In the meantime, treat it like a chronic pain condition in which you know it flares up (and you know exactly when it's coming). Mark out your cycle in your calendar so you get a reminder that the "crazy" time is starting, and during that time, limit your interactions with people to those who understand what you're going through.

And be kind to yourself. PMDD can be downright disabling, and you dont have to expect yourself to be a perfectly functioning human being when its rearing its ugly head. It took a lot of work to get mine under control, and sometimes I occasionally still just feel like a psycho hose beast when it's that time. In those times I just slow myself down and try to take it easy.

I know it's making you feel crazy but you're not. Your body is being an asshole but it's not you, you're not crazy, and it's not your fault.

Try changing your BC. If you are okay trying an SSRI, that might help too. Just be careful of trying too many different meds and side effects.

[callingforthesun]

the only med I'm on is birth control...(and I just switched to a different pill where I won't get a period).. in the past I have tried a ton of meds... Prozac, paxil, serzone, remeron, celexa, effexor, nortriptylene, amitriptyline, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Klonopin, trazodone, Ritalin, lamictal...that's just off the top of my head. they all just made me more suicidal and non-functional. since I've been on the pill for a while I'm super aware of when everything is going to start feeling ****** and I prepare myself...it just never seems to be enough. I still get overwhelmed, depressed, insanely anxious, hopeless, etc. I hope this new birth control works cause I'm really struggling.

[gypped]

I was diagnosed with PMDD over a decade ago. I kept a detailed journal of my moods, and it was clear that I went off the rails around the end of each month, about a week or so before my period. Literally EVERY time I got fired for being insubordinate, broke up with a guy, got a speeding ticket, or failed an important test --- it was around the 28th! Hahaha. My doctor suggested "chaste tree" pills. I have been taking them for a long time, and they seem to help a little bit. You can find them at health food stores or online. Here's a link to read up on it: Chaste Tree Uses, Benefits & Dosage - Drugs.com Herbal Database.

[Ylba]

Try Travacor. It's a natural supplement that helped with my PMDD.