[birdcrazy]

Basically it took months to find the job that I just had, but then I was fired three weeks into it because I couldn't physically handle it.

After I was fired, I had a bipolar spell that I haven't snapped out of yet, mania, depression, etc... I tried to go to the hospital to get admitted, but they don't admit you based on you just thinking about suicide apparently.

Anyway, what happened was I just got called from a job. They told me they somehow missed my application, hired someone else, then found it very soon after hiring that person and realized they should have hired me. They said I would get the job if that person didn't want it or something went wrong with that person, but I was told the person accepted it.



It's probably going to take months more for me to find a job, but I can't handle something like this emotionally.

My family is getting so bad financially after uncle lost his jobs that we often get down to no money left. We can barely find food and the state won't help us anymore. I can even barely stay on the internet and I feel guilty that money could get going to food. I'm just burdening them more not working.

I can't stand this. I'm sleeping most of the day and much of the day my aunt is yelling at me over stuff and not supportive.

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Goodness, I'm very sorry about all of this!! Please keep your head held high because there will be a better day!
I want you to not sleep in though, because I know firsthand that the extra sleep won't help out. And also, apply for as many things as you can. A job is a job and it pays no matter how small it is. Hunny, I'm just hoping the sun will come out and shine so brightly on you and your family.
Go for that job, bird! Any honest, decent job will be one that will go toward whatever you desire. Your aunt will see how badly you want to get paid, so she will leave you alone. (Her behavior to you isn't fair, by the way. You deserve much better.) I'm rooting for you and sending lots of love during these rough times!

Keep posting, bird. Please do..