[Jan1212]

It's not local, it's kind of far from me like half an hour away. I don't want to go, I don't want to be disappointed again - but I am trying, I can't get anything in this crowded city anyway.

I have a questionable work history, they were all summer entry jobs, like cashiering. I quit them all because it was emotionally stressful with crowded city people and customers demeaning you, and also your coworkers and boss. I haven't had a job in a while. I have no experience in this new field which I am studying either which also discourages them to hire me

The HR person really wanted me to come though. I'm stressing out it's hard to prepare. What if I don't learn as fast? What if I can't get along with coworkers? What if it interferes with school? Ugh I feel tired already

[regretful]

Try the other side of the what if's...that is, what if it works out better than expected? What if I learn so much that I'm eager to learn more? What if the co-workers are the finest people that I've ever been around? What if the HR folks are so accomodating that they'll work around my school schedule because they like me so much?

Remember, when you're in school, nobody generally has the experience in their field of study. Everyone starts at the entry level. You'll do fine. Seize the day!

[Jan1212]

I think I got it Well, she mentioned pay, benefits, schedule, parking, physical, fingerprinting, scrub-wear and the orientation on Monday

I walked in thinking I wouldn't get it, figured then I wouldn't be too disappointed and depressed, and to help me become more relaxed. saw another woman who already works with experience at a hospital get a position right before me. I forgot the documents I was supposed to show too.

I'm not sure if I should take mornings or evenings 8-hr shifts. I want evening but then I wouldn't have time for family and partner...

[regretful]

Fantastic! I'm glad to hear this! G-R-E-A-T!

[Perna]

That's great; I hope you enjoy it and aren't too stressed. Too bad about the travelling half an hour each way; I had a commute of about that period of time and enjoyed listening to books on tape (but now they are on CD's might be harder to have a good "cut-off" point; the cassette tapes were about half an hour a side so perfect for my commute).

[Jan1212]

I do record lecture and class is starting soon so that's a great idea, thanks, Perna It's a scenic drive, it's calming for me I pass lakes, tress, reservoirs, and see mountains on the way. I had oritnetation and didn't think to bring all of my stuff, I brought them, but they were the wrong ones. There were all these forms I didn't understand and they just told me to bring it in tomorrow I felt so stupid. Only working 2 days a week

I'm worried about getting along with coworkers, I never got along with anyone they always seem to somehow ruin things and I seem to disappoint everyone. I am going to meet some tomorrow and the rest of the week. I'm worried they'll be the type to help each other out and leave the outcast alone so she'll mess up and get behind. I'm worried because I am not like them, not age-wise nor cultural-wise, I don't want it to happen, again!

[Rose3]

Just wondering why you would say that you disappoint everyone?
Is this something realistic? Are you really disappointing people, or is there
something else going on? Some environments are hostile, for reasons that
I don't understand - so is this maybe what you've been caught up in?
Try to go in with confidence, that you are prepared to do a good job, that
you will offer to help others when you can, and don't let anybody walk all
over you. I mean - always be on time for work, be organized, accurate,
reliable.
All the best with your job.

[Jan1212]

edit I have disappointed my past employers because one time I got promoted and then decided to quit because I broke up with my ex and got depressed. The other time I suddenyl quit because I couldn't take my coworkers and customers, anxiety would build up and I would do stupid things even after I worked there for a while. I disappointed my teachers because I would get bad grades or would forget things, and they thought I was a good student. They would sigh, and shake their head , get disappointed in me

I'll try to be rational, For now, I'm still in training, I'm gradually going to do things independently for the next 2 weeks. The other people I work with, other than the one I'm training with, are already telling me what to do (so their workload eases up) but then again I'm just standing there looking clueless. I also forgot to punch in, and on the way out I set off the alarm, I am way too clumsy and have bad anxiety walking through the halls with visitors and doctors i stutter to say hello, and look awkward

The drive also eats up my gasoline