skating around the edge!!!!

I'm skating around the edge with my job. One mental health day off turned into three and then I had to get a physician release to go back to work. With the fictitious symptoms I told the doc about he said I had food poisoning and told me to take the rest of the week off!! I feel soooo guilty!! Ifeel worthless!! How did I let this happen? My husband is disappointed with me cuz he told me so.

I have a good job but it is stressful. Sometimes I just want to quit!! I get so stressed out with it!! Calling off is just my way of avoiding the situation but this did get out of hand. I'm embarrassednabout my lie and don't want the rest of my family to know what ive done. Imnsuch a slug! I know God will forgive me. Injustice gotta forgive myself.

I'm 52 years old and knownbetter. If I was young I could understand but I'm not. Has anybody else ever done anything like this? I feel so alone!!

Ive been at this job for 22 years and think I do a pretty good job when I'm there. Please somebody say something even if u tell me how bad I am. I need to hear from someone!

Lol....guess I.ll just talk to myself. Part of me is dreading going back to work tomorrow. Ive enjoyed being off but I gotta get back to reality. I have a good job and I am thankful for it. I also have a great husband that I adore. I cant blame missing a weeks work on bipolar I think its just bad behavior on my part!! Gotta duck it up and do what's right although I feel like I could stay at home forever!! I think I love being a hermit!! Lol. Will update you guys tomorrow and let you know how my first day back goes!!