[kala83]

so I have been working with voc rehab where I live for quite a while now.

and I had to admit to both myself and to the people I am working with, as much as I want to have a job I might not be able to do so.

my manic momments have been a lil worse lately some nights like tonight I don't end up getting to sleep til 3 to 4 am.

but because I am not on lithium as well as they pushed up antidepressants and anxiety pills all of which make me drozzy. I will just end passing the hell out in the middle of the days and it sometimes ends up making me late to meetings.

my voc rehab peoeple kindly remind me that if I was to get a job the people at that job would not be so understanding if I was a few minutes late as they are. Not to mention my mood swings might not be so great for a job environment either.

At this point I want to continue working with voc rehab but at the same time I filed for disablity as well with the help of my friend.
I just need to face the facts that working is not going to be easy for me like other people, and there is a chance its just not possible for me to.

swallowing my pride and admiting this truth is not easy for me but I do have to look at as a possablity. But I refuse to tell myself no, if I want to go to school again and study ANYTHING I want then I can. Because thinking postively has power.

[Travelinglady]

Yes, it might come to the point where you can't work, but try the best you can. I had to go on disability from teaching. I still miss it. But I suggest you do the best you can, as I say, and if you do need to go in disability, then that's understandable.

[avlady]

I'm on disability, after an accident actually several different accidents, and I had to swallow my pride to knowing I wouldn't be able to work too. I had seizures, etc diferent broken bones, head injuries and i still think I feel guilty for getting SSD. People are ignorant as to why I get disability but they don't know my story. I hope you can work if you are able too, but sometimes it's just not feasable, as in my case and yours too?

[IceCreamKid]

I think you are doing the right thing, in continuing voc rehab and in filing for disability. It has been my lot in life to be a hard worker and to have to work hard. I feel zero resentment towards people who cannot work. I hope you stop feeling bad about this; and anyone who would attempt to make you feel bad is being unkind and I wouldn't have a problem telling him or her so.