[Grey Matter]

I have a 101.2 fever right now. I have Adult Onset Still's disease. I have a fever every night. I am in pain every night. I have trouble getting out of bed, getting up and down the stairs, opening my med bottles, and I have an 8 hour shift tomorrow.

I shouldn't have taken a job.
It was stupid of me, I AM stupid for listening to other people shaming me over listening to my body.

All my family tells me is "loads of people go to work with far worse things than Still's." "it's a job, be thankful and suck it up" and wow I AM thankful I AM lucky, but how am I meant to work this job when I can't even get out of bed?

I just need to quit.
I am a moron.

[Tinkerbel]

What is the job? What are the benefits of going to work with such physical pain?? Maybe having a job right now is too much of a challenge and your goals might need to be based on improving your physical health. Is this possible? even just small steps?? You don't need to define yourself by whether or not you are well enough to work!! You are not a moron, you are just hearing your body telling you something you don't want to hear!!

[mwebber]

You are not a moron at all! Sometimes people give advice because they love you but they just cant relate to you. Your family is probably trying to help but they just cant seem to understand how your feeling. Do what you think is best and do not feel guilty. The job wont take it persoanlly. I am a manager and when people decide to quit for whatever reason I believe they are doing what is right for them and and if it is not working for me then at this time that that is what is right for me as well. You need to take care of you! Just stop and think hard....is this what is truley best or are you just having a bad night...maybe you should decide in the morning. Either way...your for sure not a moron and you need to trsut in your self that you will make the right decision. Good luck and feel better

[Grey Matter]

It's a food retail job.

I was just honest with my mom, sobbing after vomiting and with a fever of 102f now and saying I am not going to take the job, and she told me "I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO YOU. DON'T TAKE THE JOB. YOU'RE NOT GETTING ANY HELP OR MONEY FROM ME ANYMORE. DON'T TALK TO ME ANYMORE. YOU'RE NOT MY FUC**** PROBLEM." and she slammed a door on me, hitting my wrist that already was in so much pain.

no one cares.

[Travelinglady]

I'll have to read up on Still's. Is there any way you can call in sick and ask the business to give you just a bit of time?

I do agree that she seems really hard-hearted about your situation. I hope as a mom I wouldn't insist my child go to work when he is so sick.

[eScotty]

You can always quit the job if it proves too much for you to handle in your current physical condition. But you've nothing to lose by seeing if you can make it through the eight-hour shift. In any case, you are not a moron. I hope that you don't allow your physical illness to also cause you low self-esteem. Hang in there!

[MoxieDoxie]

Let us know how it goes!

[ThirtyThree82]

Wow, I hate to say this, but your mom seems really ignorant. I don't know how old you are, but I assume you are living with your family since they are so adamant that you work. Fast food retail is not one of the easier jobs out there, physically speaking. Your family sounds very much like mine. They just don't understand, and are too narrow minded and judgmental to even try. You seem very young, and I don't believe that people who are not well and able bodied as the rest of the family should be pressured into working jobs they cannot handle. You probably applied to a job that you knew was not a good fit for you just because of what your family wants. This has set you up for shame, guilt, and possible failure. Unfortunately you have some limitations. I wish your family was more aware and less selfish to what those limitations are. The strong should help the weak, but lately it seems that the strong would like to ignore the weak because it's difficult to look at, and they just want to feel happy and comfortable. I've always been a very poor person, and never really received much help, and sometimes the people who have helped me have also hurt me. The harm caused early on had a lasting effect, and the older I get, the more I realize that I can only count on myself, which really sucks, but seems to be the truth. So, if I were to try and give some practical advice, it would be: only apply for jobs that you are sure you can handle with your condition. Ignore your family's stupid comments for now. Don't talk to them about your worries, or anything like that. They just don't seem to get it, and probably never will. I used to try to talk to my mom about how I felt about this or that. She would sit up on her high horse listing her accomplishments despite her own perceived adversity. That's her life, and my life is totally different from her. You have a whole different set of challenges than those in your family. I just hate when people discredit your feelings and abilities just because they have not had the same feelings and experiences. I decided to reply to your post because I have been through the same type of criticism and pressure from my family when it comes to working. They have never really helped me, and at 30 yrs. old, I have to learn to let go of the idea of a family that actually helps each other out. You are not a moron, you are simply trying to please others and do what they want you to do. Just remember to listen to your body. Another job will come along that you will be able to handle.