I feel guilty though at the same time I had learned from this.

The other day one of my co-workers came to me and said I heard you had complained that I didn't do anything prepping wise for you for breakfast.

Yes, I did do that which wasn't right. The co-worker that I had complained to though she didn't do any better by going to him and telling him. I don't think it's right to spread drama. I am planning on telling her the next time I see her that I did complain about it and explain it was mainly due to one item that wasn't prepped up which I had told him; it wasn't everything. And then say though I would had spoken up to him myself if I had that big of frustrations. Maybe she will realize I do not need her spreading.

At the same time I had learned even more so not to complain. Complaining is a bad habit that isn't healthy unless you do it the correct way; which most people do not do. The correct way would of been letting go at the moment and rethinking whether I need to speak to the co-worker that I had frustrations with, not complaining to others. If I need help I'll ask for help. I also learned it's not best to complain around her because she is filled with drama (a chronic complainer), she doesn't realize it either.

Why I feel guilt is because I feel like I partically lied to the co-worker. I do not feel right around him because he is manipulative. He behaves similar to a narrcisist. He thinks he is perfect and if you say one thing he does wrong he tries to get back at you. I notice when I complain(this incedent) or tell him something I do not want him to do he tells me as many things I did wrong. Which I didn't know until he tells me and I thank him because it does help a lot and he continues to give negative feedback( I actually love hearing it when it is true). Which most of the time I do not react because I do not like sugar-coating even though he does. I'm sure he went back and complained behind my back some more after he acted as though things were fine. I'm sure I am not assuming too.

This is another reason I need to leave this place is because the management allows co-workers like him. They know that he behaves this way ( lies, reacts quickly and doesn't correct himself when the criticism is true and helpful). I do avoid him as much as possible, though I want to become more strong where I do not feel that force when I am around him. Which the only possible way to do so is being around him more and finding more tactics around him, so I do not become anxious. I get shaky and you can hear it in my voice.

sounds like you figured out the best way to handle your situation so you don't find yourself going down the same road. good job.