[Moreta]

I've been having really bad anxiety and bad thoughts while I've been working. I so want to have a real job that stretches my intellect, but my husband says I'm not ready for it. My T doesn't think I'm ready for it either. She says I should maybe look into SSDI, b/c my bipolar, GAD, OCD, and PTSD. I'm having a really hard time working and I'm on the verge of hospitalization a lot. I have a really easy job and that stresses the hell out of me. It's gotten worse these past few weeks. My pdoc called in some klonopin last week and I've been taking it like candy. It only dulls the anxiety a bit, but it's still there. We've been working on it in therapy forever, but I can't get a handle on it.

I really don't know what to do. I want to work and be productive, but it just doesn't seem like it's working out. When I end up in the hospital, the pdocs there always ask why I'm working, when I clearly shouldn't.

I see my pdoc on the 15th, so I think I'm going to ask him about it. My T said she would back me with whatever decision I make.

[Travelinglady]

How are things going, Moreta? I hope your pdoc can be helpful. I'm sure it's hard to find a job that's just the right amount of challenge you need, but not too stressful.