[Hatter08]

I'm twenty-one-years old and still living with my mother. Money is tight for the family and I can't help but feel like a mooch by staying here. We've recently found ourselves in a major situation where financial problems are more likely to surface soon. I had planned on going back to college this year, within about a month and trying to get an education. I may end up having to do this online as I have no form of transportation and live nowhere near a college. That being said, a job interview is opening up tomorrow and I have debated taking it to attempt to help out with the finances.

I am horribly depressed, believe I have avoidant personality disorder and get horribly sick every time I have to leave the house. I worked at my last job for six months before quitting because during that time I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, I had several situations where I nearly fainted in the workplace, I started up former bad habits like smoking and felt as if I was going to vomit the whole time I was at work. So, that being said, I know I can not handle a job and college, I'm not even sure I'll be able to handle the job and am already horribly sick just thinking about the interview tomorrow.

So, it's either go to college and just feel like a mooch for the entirety of it. I think I can get in on vocational rehabilitation entirely, though I am already somewhat in debt to student loans which will be put in deferment if I go back to school or I can take the job, putting my education off for another couple years until I can get all of this sorted out, despite the fact that I desperately want to get an education.

I feel like I want to go to college more than anything and just the thought of getting this job makes me depressed to a dangerous extent. But I feel like there are too many problems going on right now to be able to afford not working. Since I have to go online, I would have to find some way to maintain the internet connection, all of our stuff is in a storage unit from when we were recently homeless that isn't paid off and we're likely to lose all of our stuff if that happens and I'm really not seeing any way out of this that doesn't end with me doing something drastic and have been thinking about it more and more.

[Travelinglady]

Hatter08, our 23-year-old son is coming back home for awhile before he heads to grad school. He will be helping out around the house and taking classes on-line. I certainly don't begrudge him being here. He will be working on the weekends.

The issue is how you are upset about working, though. I suggest you see about going to a mental health clinic that just takes what people can pay to see about working through some issues. It would be hard to work with your state right now.

Helping at home means a lot to many parents, especially if they would have to pay for services otherwise.

Then you can see about classes. It would just be a temporary break from your studies. And you can be checking into alternative sources of school money.

But, otherwise, can you see yourself working in a job where you don't have to interact with people a lot? If so, then you could see about that. Even do odd jobs for people, mow lawns, rake leaves, or whatever. Do you think something like that might work?

[Hatter08]

Thanks for the reply.

I've been to the only mental health clinic in town that offered a sliding scale, but it was still too much to pay for and I believe I still owe them money. I think I could handle, if I could find, an office job of some kind that offered data entry work but there are so few places of employment here that I've been able to find. As for doing odd jobs, I think I could manage those. I would just need to find places to do that, which is difficult with no social interaction.