[blackmagic]

I've been having some difficult personal times lately, and had been suspecting for some time that my coworkers were tiring of my depressive personality - then i was let go for a "cultural mismatch," i.e. my personality isn't the same as everyone else's.

Now I don't know what to do: I don't want to work, especially for people who won't tolerate or help others who may be going through rough spots. I don't know what to do - I just want to fall asleep forever.

[Perna]

It can take some time to grieve losing a job. I would take a few days, look around at what might look interesting/a task you might enjoy, think about how you can trade some time for money or to get something done you have been putting off, etc. It is hard having to struggle with depression and loss of a job, etc. but maybe it is a good thing too since those people weren't right for you either!

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

I have often been dismissed, generally for being unwontedly honesty, but usually this has worked out for the best, and I ended up with a more suitable post. Take a break, do some temping perhaps, and when you find another job remember that you cannot change them but you can change how you think about them.

[nonightowl]

((((BlackMagic))))It seems to me that the workplace is like high school: A popularity contest. Then, there's the stigma of mental illness in this culture, along with employer's apparently preference for "outgoing, bubbly, extroverted, friendly" people (even for NON-sales jobs). As if being like that makes you a better worker----it doesn't.

Maybe (if you can) take some time to regroup. I hope you have someone you can talk to----friend, relative, therapist or best yet: someone in the same boat as you.

I've had a position terminated after just one *&%$^#@ week in the past.

[potassium benzoate]

your situation reminds me too much of mine. I know how it feels. It's like they cared so little about the problems I had before I got fired and then they even added onto it with more problems by firing me! I also feel like I just want to go to sleep forever. But I can barely sleep a couple hours in a row anymore.

It feels like getting fired gave me PTSD about getting another job. It feels like it's all over but it's probably not. Statistically speaking, the world tends to continue spinning. But it really doesn't feel like it.

[bigblackdog]

Originally Posted by blackmagic

I've been having some difficult personal times lately, and had been suspecting for some time that my coworkers were tiring of my depressive personality - then i was let go for a "cultural mismatch," i.e. my personality isn't the same as everyone else's.

Now I don't know what to do: I don't want to work, especially for people who won't tolerate or help others who may be going through rough spots. I don't know what to do - I just want to fall asleep forever.

GEt yourself down to the unemployment office and apply for unemployment. Put that you were terminated without cause. Cultural mismatch is not adequate cause for termination.

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm so sorry that you are in this situation.

Unfortunately my mental health has caused difficulties at work in the past.

I'm currently not working. It sucks.

[Tol7942]

Originally Posted by blackmagic

I've been having some difficult personal times lately, and had been suspecting for some time that my coworkers were tiring of my depressive personality - then i was let go for a "cultural mismatch," i.e. my personality isn't the same as everyone else's.

Now I don't know what to do: I don't want to work, especially for people who won't tolerate or help others who may be going through rough spots. I don't know what to do - I just want to fall asleep forever.

I am in the same boat. After being underemployed for over a year and living with undiagnosed bipolar II, I finally was put on a mood stabilizer that made me feel functional enough to work. Before I was terrified that if I got a job I would lose it because I would be too tired from lack of adequate/quality sleep, feeling unmotivated and worthless, inability to concentrate, anxious and overwhelmed, etc. The medication has helped stabilize my mood and I actually wanted to work. I got a job that, albeit I was overqualified for, made me feel useful and connected to the world again. I was doing well. I was had a routine and structure. I was getting out of my house and out of my head. I was really starting to feel a part of the human race again. And after 2 months, I had to leave because of an untenable situation with the person I was working for. At first she was thrilled with my work and I felt like I was making a positive contribution. I was learning quickly and feeling more competent than I had in years. As I gained confidence and independence in my role, I'm not sure why, but she flipped a switch and began criticizing everything I was doing, mirco-managing me and contradicting herself in directing my tasks and role to the point where I couldn't please her and I was terrified of making a mistake. So I had to leave. I was devastated. This job was my lifeline and I couldn't afford not to have it, both for financial and mental health reasons. At first I told myself that I was not going to let the situation make me lose my momentum, so the next day I began working on my resume, learning how to use LinkedIn, applying for temp jobs...anything to keep me from sinking into a depression. I lasted 3 days before I became totally overwhelmed and discouraged, lost all motivation to continue with my job search, and now I'm back to where I was before I went on medication. I am totally hopeless. I feel like a complete loser. I don't want to do anything but sleep, but I can't even do that.