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Early this morning my boss called me, nothing unusual about that, she calls everyday asking the same questions and at times trying to engage me in conversation about this or that. Well, this morning was different. Apparently she is not pleased with my work schedule, which is not defined. I was instructed by doctors 2 years ago to work part-time till things got better, and as you may have guessed, they haven't.

She asked what I was working on, what I planned to work on, how long I would be staying and I caught the hint. She implied that I come and go as I so please. I lost it. Thank God I have a little box of an office all to myself. I cried for about 20 minutes. I could feel my blood pressure rising, my heart palpitating and my mind explode.

You see, I am a bookkeeper, well I use to be, but every since my brain aneurysm I have been struggling with what once came very easy to me. We had our yearly audit and the CPA's found tons and tons of error's made by me. My boss said she was okay with that, but I know better. I've been around her for 20 years now. I think the subtle hint about my hours was just another strike against me.

I couldn't hold it in so I wrote a letter, hoping to resolve the hours /schedule for good or until I get fired or quit. I just needed to share with someone. I guess I need validation but more so someone that understands how difficult it is to deal/work with mental issues and in my case other health issues.

Tell me what you think, give me input, give me advice, or just a much needed hug. My life is pushing me to edge. It is falling apart at every seam. Thanks for listening if nothing else.

Letter to my bosses, (It's too late to tweek it, I've already gave it to them).

Dear _________,

The last 4 years has not been easy for me. My illnesses have affected every aspect of my life and the lives of those around me. Please know, that I am very appreciative for the leniency that you have shown me the last two years. I know I have caused many, many rifts throughout this time and I can only apologize for having done so.

Why should I be treated any differently than anyone else? Even more now that my work/efforts is not up to par. In fact, I am surprised that I am still here, and again I am grateful for the opportunity. Yes, I very much need a job, friends, support, help and all the other things that have kept me afloat.

Everyday is a struggle for me, be it physically or mentally. I never know how it will start or end. I only know with certainty that I try very hard to meet the expectations of everyone, failing often, but nevertheless still trying.

Without naming names, subtle hints about the hours or the time I come and leave are mentioned often to me or about me. Not wanting other staff or yourselves to think I am taking advantage or abusing your willingness to accommodate me, I am asking that a schedule for me be put into place.

If it is okay with you, I would like to work from 7am until 1pm or 8am until 2pm. I will work what hours you so decide if it differs from the hours I requested.

I’m sorry that my current health issues has created such a negative atmosphere for all concerned but strongly feel that having a steady work schedule may eliminate some of the uncertainty my current unstable comings and goings has caused and may very well be helpful to all concerned.

Thank you for your time and consideration to my request.

Respectfully,

[Trippin2.0]

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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

thank you, i needed tha