[PieceofMe]

I have gad and I feel really crappy about getting a job. I haven't worked much. Almost 25 this month. I finished community college with a degree and certificate to work with kids. no car. It's overwhelming. I am afraid that i will go in and suck at the interview and job. i am afraid they will hate me and then fire me for whatever reason.
my last job was at college and i worked for them and did well. I just don't feel very good about my last evaluation from my eced teacher. she told me that i did good but was unsure of myself and needed to be"confident!!!!!" (eye roll) I hate it when people point out the worst in me while I am trying hard. she also told me that she thought i was inexperienced ad didn't know what to do with kids. that's great. i'm very shy. i haven't worked with kids and she should have known that. why write it down? i'm very sad and anxious because of that. i feel stupid.
also, i think she made me more nervous than she needed to because she said she would just be there for a few minutes. she stayed an hour and a half and pretty much hovered behind me, running up behind me and following me before i could even sit down again. so annoying. she was my fave teacher. not anymore. i hate her. i hate jobs and i don't want one even though i need one. i'm a huge screw up.

[nonightowl]

Can't be of much help, I wanted to at least post some hugs.

I can relate to you about the job thing, more or less. Only thing I can suggest is take it one hour at a time, one day at a time---on the job or not.

[spring2014]

Originally Posted by PieceofMe

I have gad and I feel really crappy about getting a job. I haven't worked much. Almost 25 this month. I finished community college with a degree and certificate to work with kids. no car. It's overwhelming. I am afraid that i will go in and suck at the interview and job. i am afraid they will hate me and then fire me for whatever reason.
my last job was at college and i worked for them and did well. I just don't feel very good about my last evaluation from my eced teacher. she told me that i did good but was unsure of myself and needed to be"confident!!!!!" (eye roll) I hate it when people point out the worst in me while I am trying hard. she also told me that she thought i was inexperienced ad didn't know what to do with kids. that's great. i'm very shy. i haven't worked with kids and she should have known that. why write it down? i'm very sad and anxious because of that. i feel stupid.
also, i think she made me more nervous than she needed to because she said she would just be there for a few minutes. she stayed an hour and a half and pretty much hovered behind me, running up behind me and following me before i could even sit down again. so annoying. she was my fave teacher. not anymore. i hate her. i hate jobs and i don't want one even though i need one. i'm a huge screw up.

hi apieceofme ,
im in the same boat too . I m scared to look for a job too . I was let go from my previous job as a floater at a day care center . I don't have the courage to look for another job that will suit me cuz of my anxiety and depression. I don't have a car too . the owner of the day care center let me go cuz she thinks that I wasn't capable enough to handle the job . my thoughts were you ***** !!!! now I can't get any job dealing with kids cuz of her . that is why I don't want to apply for anymore jobs now . im being haunted by my former boss .



Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 60 mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia with an additional 25 mgs=75 mgs when up past 1:00 in the morning

[avlady]

I've had several part time jobs as a person in my 20's and as a teenager i was the neighborhood babysitter. i have to say the hardest job i had was the babysitting/nanny jobs. look for some other types of jobs where you don't have to deal with children-it can be very stressful. i was also a waitress, a produce clerck, nursinghome kitchen aid, etc, etc,etc. i liked all of the other jobs more than the children jobs. also the pay is better. i wish you good luck and don't worry yourselves about not being great at childrens jobs they are the hardest.

[PieceofMe]

Originally Posted by avlady

I've had several part time jobs as a person in my 20's and as a teenager i was the neighborhood babysitter. i have to say the hardest job i had was the babysitting/nanny jobs. look for some other types of jobs where you don't have to deal with children-it can be very stressful. i was also a waitress, a produce clerck, nursinghome kitchen aid, etc, etc,etc. i liked all of the other jobs more than the children jobs. also the pay is better. i wish you good luck and don't worry yourselves about not being great at childrens jobs they are the hardest.

But I have a degree in early childhood education!!!!!!!!!! I have extreme shyness and don't want to do anything other than school work. I can do office jobs but I don't want to be waitress or kitchen aid. I can work with kids I just can't deal with my anxiety and shyness around people in general.
I love children to be honest. If I didn't, I wouldn't have went to school to do that.

[PieceofMe]

Originally Posted by spring2014

hi apieceofme ,
im in the same boat too . I m scared to look for a job too . I was let go from my previous job as a floater at a day care center . I don't have the courage to look for another job that will suit me cuz of my anxiety and depression. I don't have a car too . the owner of the day care center let me go cuz she thinks that I wasn't capable enough to handle the job . my thoughts were you ***** !!!! now I can't get any job dealing with kids cuz of her . that is why I don't want to apply for anymore jobs now . im being haunted by my former boss .



Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 60 mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia with an additional 25 mgs=75 mgs when up past 1:00 in the morning

So sorry about that. I was told to get counseling after my first job ended by my boss because of my constant crying spells that I have. I did that when volunteering too. i try to hide it and it makes me want to cry more. I hate it. I don't want to get a job and them think that I can't do it. it sucks. I have GAD but don't know why i cry so much for. I did that throughout school too.

I hope you can get the courage to get another job. do you like working with kids ?? I love them. I love when they hug me and tell me that they love me. They can love you even when you aren't outgoing, unlike adults who judge you no matter what you do