[BlueCrustacean]

I say "pretty much" because they always say "I don't think this is a good fit... what do you think?", probably because firing would require compensation on their part, and me quitting absolves them of all responsibility.

The worst part is, I failed at both of these jobs within a week, two at most. So I've had one whole month of pure failure. They were both physically demanding jobs (which I've had before, yet I'm apparently not up to the tasks), and I just can't seem to take direction well. I need to be SHOWED and DEMONSTRATED what to do, not just told, and often MULTIPLE times. I'm verbally deficient/challenged.

My latest boss gave me a second chance today, but she was not impressed with my work. I don't even understand WHY she offered it in the first place, especially since I told her I decided to quit and she knows I suck. I did a horrible job today. I even had to tell her she didn't have to pay me for the first hour, because she couldn't afford how slow I was to get the simplest things done.

I'm sick and tired of my best, hardest efforts going unappreciated. I'm sick of being criticized and reprimanded for every single thing I do, and nothing I do ever being good enough. I'm sick and tired of doubting my brain's ability to even function correctly and take in new information.

Most of all, I'm sick and tired of losing.

I'm not used to being so terrible at jobs. I was once a rockstar employee at my last seasonal job before being unemployed for several months. I used to have confidence built up. Now it's all gone.

[Skeezyks]

Hello BlueCrustacean: I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. Work is such an important part of our lives that, when it doesn't go well, it can be really difficult. No one is good at everything. We all have things we can do & things we just can't, no matter how much we might want to. I hope that, in some way, you will be able to find an employment situation that suits you so you can once again feel like a rockstar!

[Pretzelle]

Originally Posted by BlueCrustacean

I'm sick and tired of doubting my brain's ability to even function correctly and take in new information.

Most of all, I'm sick and tired of losing.

I'm not used to being so terrible at jobs. I was once a rockstar employee at my last seasonal job before being unemployed for several months. I used to have confidence built up. Now it's all gone.

I know exactly how that feels too. I get so caught up in doubting and criticizing myself that it's almost like a self-fulfilling prophecy. And working at one bad job that leads to being let go can have a devastating effect on confidence. The good news is that confidence can be built up again, and perhaps this is a blessing in disguise. Now you are free to look for other jobs that will be more suitable. Keep trying, keep looking, and don't be afraid to accept work outside your comfort zone. Sometimes those jobs can lead to amazing results (I speak from personal experience). Also, keep your head up and try not to let this get you down. Allow yourself to be upset about it, but don't let it control your life. You were a rockstar employee once, and you can definitely be that again. You just have to find the right work. Best wishes and try to have some fun in the meantime.

[BlueCrustacean]

Thanks guys. I know this may sound foolish to some, but I don't care. I'm done with "jobs". I don't want a job, working for someone else. That has never been my life goal. I'm working on starting up a business. In the meantime I may get another little job, an easier one that I can actually handle to pay the bills, but I will NEVER stick with a "job" for the rest of my life, no matter how good it is.

I'll let this pain and disappointment fuel me towards creating my REAL, authentic life.

[KarenSue]

Originally Posted by BlueCrustacean

Thanks guys. I know this may sound foolish to some, but I don't care. I'm done with "jobs". I don't want a job, working for someone else. That has never been my life goal. I'm working on starting up a business. In the meantime I may get another little job, an easier one that I can actually handle to pay the bills, but I will NEVER stick with a "job" for the rest of my life, no matter how good it is.

I'll let this pain and disappointment fuel me towards creating my REAL, authentic life.

That's the spirit! I too am unemployed. And I am tired of putting my future in the hands of others, Corps, Partnerships, individually owned businesses and a non-profit...doesn't matter, I've worked for each. I'm tired of being a "wage slave" and being taken advantage of. I've spent all my good years on making other people wealthy. I'm now 57 and have the age "problem" in a very soft job market. My husband has had his own business, horse trainer and farrier (trimming horse's hoofs and shoeing) since 1990 so I know how to open a business and do all the paperwork, accounting, income taxes. He doesn't make a fortune, but he's his own boss, determining when he will work, what times, etc.

Now, the big question, what kind of business to start?

[Calico_91]

I went through this before I worked with Vocational Rehab. Maybe they can help you with training and finding a job that is a better fit for you.