[BBB2]

Warning: moany, complaining rant ahead. I have a lot to be grateful for, but I'm worried about the future.

I'm not scared of hard work, I like to keep busy, but I do feel anxious about being "trapped" in a working life.

This aversion comes from burning myself out at school and college, and from seeing my parents and family friends suffering from working too hard. I've known too many people suffering from stress,depression, anxiety and serious physical problems.

I want to be a hard worker and not be a burden on society, but I feel cold inside when I think of the life ahead of me.

I've never coped well with stress. I always need a lot of sleep, so waking up to alarm is always horrible. I'm introverted, so although I like and care about people, I need alone time. I'm only comfortable in my own clothing. I don't like uniforms.

I'm not academic, and not that bright. I don't have low self-esteem, just an average IQ. I'm scared I'll end up in a supermarket. I've worked in one before. I had to work long hours in an uncomfortable environment (too cold, too bright, too noisy, too busy, and too dirty) in a polyester uniform. I don't want to go back.

I was happiest when I was volunteering in a children's hospice. Because I was a volunteer I didn't have the burden of responsibility. I could work whatever days, hours, times I wanted. I could enjoy the feeling of doing important work. If I was better at studying and didn't suffer from frequent back problems, I could have perhaps tried nursing, but I don't think it's meant to be. I was good at cleaning and playing with the children. Thank goodness we don't need degrees to do those things!

I'm going to tell you about my dream life. If I had the skills and talent I would like to be a freelance illustrator or writer. It would be hard work, sometimes stressful, but it would be creative work. I could manage my own environment, working hours, and wear my comfy clothes. Perhaps I would even have time to volunteer at the hospice again.

Thanks for reading! I hope everyone has a good week ahead of them

[Skeezyks]

Thanks for sharing this, BBB2!

[Yzen]

No matter where you work, find time to nurture your creative self. It will help you feel whole even as you spend most of your day in the grind.