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How do you manage going to work and focusing on it when your mind is so caught up with your own issues?

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My boss asked me what was wrong with me and i didnt know what to answer. I said nothing is wrong, but its true that ive been behaving differently in the last week or two. But i dont know whats wrong with me. Something IS off but i cant pinpoint what it is. Maybe its just my job not being a new thing anymore and the excitement for it is gone. I only know everything is back being grey and detached from me...

[justxholdon]

It's not easy.

I have days when I'm stuck in my head and the simplest 'hey, you're quiet today, are you okay?' makes me tear up and excuse myself. On the other hand, I have days when work is a welcome distraction from what's going on in my head. I'm not sure how to advise you to get more of the latter.

Are there aspects of the job you enjoy? Times where it's busy or a certain task you find to be soothing or interesting? Maybe focusing on something like that can help. Or journaling before work to sort of empty out the thoughts and feelings before going into work with a fresh start?

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Thank you Justxholdon. Both days happen to me too. it was easier when this job was a news and it was keeping my mind busy. i was SO busy pleasing my boss. now my mind is more caught up in my issues and i feel i can be more me at work so my mind wonders a bit more and i cant play the role of the "perfect employee" anymore.

At the moment any contact with my boss makes me feel spaced out. maybe cause she shaped it more like a friendship than a boss-employee relationship and i dont know how to act. i prefer when i work alone on something she or others gave me. and when i dont have to do with other people. alone with my pc is best, but it isnt much coherent with the image i first gave of me, thats why my boss felt there was something wrong with me. i try acting like "before" but it feels so fake. maybe she'll get used to my new "old me".