So get this. I have been working on getting a job on my college campus. I have been depressed and discouraged for awhile about the whole job hunting thing thinking that I'm not worth anything to a prospective employer. I've been depressed all weekend over over thinking about my future and my goals and needs and what not.

Anyways, come Monday, I went up to the college campus to finish a draft to an essay that's due later this week since I have such difficulties focusing at home. Since I also had a therapy session later that day and I'm so dependent on the buses and it takes me over an hour to get home I figured "screw it" I have time to kill so let me try to improve my resume.

I put a couple of hours of solid work into making my resume the best that I possibly could and I took it in to the student help place to get it looked at and see if I could possibly improve it further. The person who was looking at it who was a student employee seemed to be having trouble knowing how to improve it so she goes and grabs her manager (the person who is also in charge of hiring in that section of the school). The manager flat out told me that my resume was one of the best out of all of the student resumes that she has seen. She also claimed that many students who have actually found jobs on campus did so with resumes that couldn't even complete with mine. Keep in mind, this was an older lady and not a student who looks and sounds like she has a lot of experience with this sort of thing so her words carry a lot of weight; especially considering that she didn't seem too hopeful when I first came in there to get help a month ago.

That's not all. The next day (today), I see a sign in one of the tutoring places in the school that claims they are hiring both tutors and people to work at the front desk. I go in to talk to the manager there about it and at first I was a little nervous, but I forced myself somehow to remain calm and talk to him like a human. We got to know each other a bit on a personal level after finding out that he's also a student who is in the same major as me. I pulled out a hard copy of my resume and let him look at it and he said that he is impressed with my resume and told me to apply next week when the jobs post on the web site and that he would be keeping an eye out for my application and bringing me in for an interview. He flat out told me that he thinks I have a very good shot of getting a job there by the Fall.

For the first time in awhile, I feel like I actually have some value to other people as a human being. I overcame a significant barrier which was talking to hiring managers and the resume thing. Speaking of resumes, I pulled off getting the perfect resume together without lying in any way! I included some things that I didn't think would be relevant since I wouldn't have been able to provide references for them or verify that I did them but hey, two managers can't be wrong!

I am more emboldened than ever before now.

I am so pleased for you!

Originally Posted by Little Cat

I am so pleased for you!

In a way, I have you and another member here to thank for that resume help that you gave me that one time. Although, I changed the final resume significantly, that part about the sick relative to describe gaps in my work history has helped me tremendously.

[unaluna]

Your writing sample in this post is extremely good. Just sayin'!

Originally Posted by unaluna

Your writing sample in this post is extremely good. Just sayin'!

Thanks haha

This isn't even very good writing for me because I'm so tired right now from being gone 18 hours and getting so much done today on 5 hours of sleep. Not to mention, typing here is less formal to me so I'm not taking sentence structure and grammar as seriously.

[reb569]

Great news!

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

That's so awesome to hear. I'm glad I made a special note to check and see if you had posted anything new when I stopped in today. I haven't heard much from you, so wanted to be sure all was ok. Seems all is more than ok

Things are really starting to shape up for you. That's so good. You have worked hard and long and been through a lot to get to this point in your life. I'm excited for you.

*hugs*

The fact that that hiring manager that I spoke to is in the same major as me and the fact that it's in the same part of the school that I've been going to receive tutoring services for my English course when things get hard for me (he pointed out that he reconized me and he probably sees how hard I've been working) seems like it's the universe's way of rewarding me for my hardships. At this point, I think that it's highly probable that I will get a job there.

To make sure that I'm practically assured a job, I am going to invest some of this FAFSA refund money into some premium job interview training in order to ensure that I top every other potential job candidate in the job interview phase much like I already have with my resume.

I got this. It's only a matter of time

[Nammu]

Way to go!

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so happy for you! Be proud of yourself.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Way to go Darkness!
You have come a long way in a short period of time. Give yourself a well-deserved treat of some kind! ❤

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

Way to go Darkness!
You have come a long way in a short period of time. Give yourself a well-deserved treat of some kind! ❤

Thanks!

I did something that I almost never get to do anymore tonight. I ordered me some Dominos. I have my account with them and they have a point system to where if you get 60 points, you get free pizza. It has taken me over a year to get 40 points (you get 10 per order) because I never have the money to order. They suckered me with a deal to buy one of their new bread foods (or whatever they're called) for an extra 10 points which means free pizza next order so I splurged tonight.

I clearly need to do more stuff like this for myself. I get angry at myself when I purchase a $2 energy drink let alone $14 worth of pizza because I hate wasting money. I justify it though because I've been doing well, but I have been dealing with depression as well and it's been a struggle for me to keep my confidence up the way it has been without feeling like I want to cry or scream.

I guess I will fake it until I make it

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend

Thanks!

I did something that I almost never get to do anymore tonight. I ordered me some Dominos. I have my account with them and they have a point system to where if you get 60 points, you get free pizza. It has taken me over a year to get 40 points (you get 10 per order) because I never have the money to order. They suckered me with a deal to buy one of their new bread foods (or whatever they're called) for an extra 10 points which means free pizza next order so I splurged tonight.

I clearly need to do more stuff like this for myself. I get angry at myself when I purchase a $2 energy drink let alone $14 worth of pizza because I hate wasting money. I justify it though because I've been doing well, but I have been dealing with depression as well and it's been a struggle for me to keep my confidence up the way it has been without feeling like I want to cry or scream.

I guess I will fake it until I make it

I'm glad to hear you DID reward yourself. It gives one a bit of an extra "push", and helps one feel a bit better about both yourself n life in general, I found when I was doing it. I hope you will continue doing this and find the same thing true for you! It's also awesome that now next time you don't have to pay for your pizza, so you can use that as a general "pick me up" if needed too. Don't be afraid to allow yourself little enjoyments in life. You deserve to have some nice things too!

*hugs*

So very happy for you.