[Mountaindewed]

I felt kinda bad today because I was getting a text from my mom that was getting me upset so I told the manager I was going on break. It was 10 minutes past our typical break time anyways but we have been going later these past couple weeks. My manager then yelled “break time!” So everyone went at the same time that I did. I felt like I uprooted the entire department because I said I was going to go on break so the manager decided that all of us should go. I didn’t mean for everyone to go when I wanted to I just really needed to address the texts I was getting.

[Mountaindewed]

My issues really are getting in the way of how I’m working. I think my managers are getting frustrated with me. I’m trying my best but I’m getting just as frustrated with myself. I really need my vacation next week.

[88Butterfly88]

Business is picking up a little. I need to crunch some numbers as soon as possible to see how much I am really making.

[Mountaindewed]

I really wanted to leave early today. But then I realized time was going by pretty fast and I could handle it. Also I had one too many Mountain Dews and Cokes this morning and didn’t realize how badly needing to use the bathroom was playing into my anxiety about work.

[SlumberKitty]

I really wanted to call in and take a mental health day today. Depression has really been kicking my butt. I didn't though. I forced myself to come into work, thinking I could get distracted. I haven't though as there hasn't been a lot of work to be done yet, there may be more this afternoon. I really don't talk about my MI at work because I am afraid of the consequences but I did tell one of my coworkers who is in a supervisory position. She was really great about it. She made me feel very accepted. She said she would never judge me for that and to not be so hard on myself. Like @Mountaindewed, I really want to leave early today. But I don't have a good reason that I could use to leave early so I will stay. At work people think I'm competent so I don't want to make them think otherwise. Sometimes working with disorders can be very difficult. It cuts both ways too. Because I can go to work and do my job and work full time and volunteer, people think I'm doing better than I am. No, I just have bills to pay and I have to work to pay those bills. But I guess I hide it well, how much I struggle. I wish I didn't have to. But it isn't safe to disclose in the workplace too much about MI.

[Turtle_Rider]

I feel kinda depressed. My application in one of big corporation got rejected. I admit it's my fault though. I'm too careless and did not recheck my answers during the test session.

[SlumberKitty]

Today work is hard. I have zero motivation. I don't want to be here. I don't want to work. I don't want to sit in meetings. I don't want to figure things out. And my concentration sucks. So it's even worse. It can be so hard to work with depression. Oh and then it's like I have to be fake and put on a happy face. Like everything is great and smiley and wonderful.

[Mountaindewed]

Work wasn’t terrible today considering the circumstances. My sleep issues were difficult and I wanted to call in but I’m off the next 3 days so that would look really bad. I was tired and out of it most of the day but I was working with a good coworker. I don’t think I did my best though but no one said anything and people were nice today.

[Mountaindewed]

And I just had 3 days off. So calling in today would have looked really really bad. I’m glad I’ve been able to push myself when I don’t want to go in.

[Turtle_Rider]

Another day, another rejection....

Well, today I finally got one response from a volunteering work I've applied. Kinda sad though, because I only got one from several applications. Furthermore, I don't think I fit for the position

[Mountaindewed]

I feel kinda bad because I called into work this morning but I caught something on my vacation and I also have the ****s as well. So I feel really bad physically. I dreaded calling them but I talked to the new guy and he was really nice.

[SlumberKitty]

I wanted to call out of work today and take a mental health day instead but I went to work. I haven't been doing much work--though not much work to do. I feel like a waste of space really.

Things are going well.

[Mountaindewed]

Work called today and wanted to switch my schedule around next week. It will mean I’ll have a 3 day weekend and he seemed really happy to talk with me. So I feel relieved that they are not mad at me. And I also get a 3 day weekend. Score.

[88Butterfly88]

Things have been pretty much the same. No complaints. I'm still poor but oh well.

[Mountaindewed]

Work wasn’t bad today. Nothing to worry about like I thought.

[SlumberKitty]

The owner of the company is here from NY so my stress levels are higher than normal. The controller is coming next week. I'm excited to meet her but also nervous too. I had an hour and a half long meeting today but it went pretty well. I feel pretty good about work today, at least right now.

[SlumberKitty]

Have zero motivation today. I also have very little work in my inbox so that isn't helping. I will be swamped tomorrow with payroll and payables. But today seems to be pretty slow.

[Mountaindewed]

My coworkers were being obnoxious today. I was (and still am) severely sleep deprived so I wasn’t talking much and they were complaining to the supervisor that they needed this and that and 2 coworkers were getting into it with each other. I was keeping to myself and using the little equipment I had of my own. I didn’t really feel like my coworkers were walking all over me but when a piece of equipment would come back they would ask each other if they needed it but they wouldn’t ask me at all. But I finally just went on the sales floor myself and got my own stuff instead of whining and complaining to the managers that we didn’t have anything like they were. Work was just dumb today.

[Turtle_Rider]

Today work is good because my new manager is away.

[WastingAsparagus]

I am teaching one class today, so that's good. I feel a little anxiety. But that's fine.

[Mountaindewed]

I came in on my day off and last night I was regretting asking if they needed me but by the time I actually started working my anxiety was fine. That one guy was off today though.

[SlumberKitty]

The owner of the business and the controller (both are based out of NY) came for a visit. They left this afternoon, but they both told me I am doing a good job, to not let anyone tell me otherwise, and thanked me for the hard work that I do. That made me feel good!

[Mountaindewed]

Apparently I called in enough times that some are going to roll over when my year starts over in a few weeks. My manager won’t say how many exactly. I’m trying not to freak out about this but I kind of am.

[SlumberKitty]

Work is slow today and I'm bored. I'm also really tired so it is hard to concentrate. I'm doing well at my job but sometimes there just isn't enough job to do.