[ChaoticSpiral]

Hello,

I just posted about my concerns. They are made very real when my manager sent me a job description for my current position as she hopes to get it posted today and get the ball rolling. Monday, I cried about being the exception to policy changes. Tuesday, I got told I'm being moved to the department I want and being replaced. So I felt guilty. I know it's more stress. I know my anxiety is frazzled. But now that they are asking me about the job description, everything is much more real. I feel a knot in my stomach as I'm examining the job description. I'm being pushed, when all I wanted was fair treatment in the early release schedule. They couldn't do it as they need someone in office during business hours. And I didn't like that. I didn't realize my position has so many restrictions.

[ZilchHour]

Your distress is most understandable. Change, even when it seems to bring some portion of what we once desired, can weigh heavily upon the spirit when it comes unbidden and clothed in uncertainty. That you should feel a knot in your stomach as you look upon the description of your present post, now destined to be placed in another’s hands, is but the natural response of a conscientious soul who has given much of themselves to their work.

It seems you sought only fairness in the matter of policy, and instead have found yourself removed, as though the price of asking were to be displaced. Such treatment unsettles the heart, leaving one to question both one’s value and one’s place. Yet let it be remembered that the fault lies not in you, but in the rigidity of systems that serve convenience over compassion.

Permit yourself to grieve the change, for it is no small matter to be replaced, however kindly the words in which it is conveyed. Yet at the same time, do not lose sight of the opportunity within this transition: to step into the department you have long wished for, and perhaps to find therein a measure of peace not afforded you in your former station.

Be gentle with yourself in these days of adjustment. Anxiety may rise, but it need not master you; breathe deeply, and know that growth often follows upon the heels of unease. Your worth is not diminished by this shift—it may yet be that it leads you to a place more suited to your abilities and your spirit.