Humpty,
I am worried about you. I agree that most doctors and therapists suck. (I was lucky, the 2nd therapist I tried did help me.) Do you go outside and exercise in the sunshine. I walk 4.5 miles per day and the combination of the sunshine with the feel good chemicals that are released (when keeping a challenging pace) is somewhat helpful. Plus, if you can tire yourself out physically, you might sleep better. Depression is always worse when you are tired. Also, sometimes when I exercise, I can reach a meditative state, which provides a brief escape from feeling like crap.

You seem like a wonderful guy. Please don't give up. -Myst