I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I've been reading tho and hugs all around!

I've just been overwhelmed. My son isnt doing well and I just don't know how to help him. His psychiatrist is worthless. The agency that we go to they just do the least amount of work that they can. He can't change pdoc's bc he already did. My pdoc is the same. Least amount of work that he can.

The good news is that I think it's going to work out with my new therapist. They have a huge turnover where I go to therapy. We don't have many options where we can go bc of our insurance. Its Medicaid. But I told him about the many trauma I've been through and he does think that living with all that pain could be contributing to my panic attacks. He gave me 4 ways to do therapy. Emdr sounds too difficult right now with the stress I'm under with the panic attacks and my son. So I think I'm going to tell him let's work on mindfulness. Maybe later we can do emdr. But he was very understanding and I don't think he will be leaving the agency. Hes been there awhile now. So I'm hopeful I may have found a good therapist that wont be leaving the agency!

We bought a new e cigarette and it did the same thing the other ones did. They weren't counterfeit after all. The shop owner where we bought the new one just upselled us. So we're out $40. I'm also so tired of worrying about money every month. Its draining. My son really needs to apply for ssi. But hes really psychotic right now so until he gets better idk what to do.

Hope everyone is having a good day. hugs to those struggling.