[friedgreymatter]

Hey, folks.

I'm on my second day without consuming alcohol. My internal organs are thanking me for it. I wanted to feel what it's like to stop polluting my body. I even ate a salad today and some yogurt. That must have confused my system.

I actually stretched today. Suprising how good it feels to do something so simple.

I am on edge, but of clearer mind than usual. Still crazy, maybe, but sober.

A little voice in my head is telling me that this drying out period won't last. I'd like to wrap my hands around that little voice's neck and strangle it!!!!

Maybe the voice will change it's way of thinking once I start cleaning up my insides. Perhaps the little voice has been drunk for too long and not thinking straight. Delirious little man in my head.

Who knows. If I keep this up, I might even start jogging or something.

When I'm chewing my nails apart and beating myself in the head, I'll try to find some activity other than drinking to calm me down.

Small steps. Small steps.

Take care, everyone. Be good to your internal organs.

-Ray

[Raynaadi]

That little voice is that nasty disease we suffer from. It'll always be there unfortunatly, but it'll get quieter. =) Congrats on 2 days! That's awesome!!! Small steps is right, baby steps even. Just wait until all the toxins are gone and you really start feeling great!!!

[goofygirl]

Way to go! That little voice inside your head is normal... and it will get better! Just take it day by day. Your body should get used to the real food soon... get some sweets, too, though... you will crave them eventually! Take care of you!

Talk to you later!

Rafael.........wow!! I'm very, very proud of you!!! pat

[shadowalker164]

I used to drop acid with this other burned out helicopter mechanic in Viet Nam many, many years ago.

We would get really stoned and he would take out this black marker and he would write “The kingdom of God is within you” all over helicopter gunships. He wrote that simple spiritual statement on machine gun ammo boxes, on the insides of radio access panels, on rocket launchers, cannons, everywhere.
I thought that tagging those death dealing machines with “The kingdom of God is within you” was the funniest thing.

Years later I found myself trying to not drink for one day at a time, and somebody told me that God could relieve me of that obsession. I wasn’t at all sure that was so, but I remembered what my most spiritual friend had penned many years earlier.

Then I read in the Big Book, way in the back, the “Spiritual Experience” and it says, “we have tapped an unsuspected inner resource”. And it clicked.
Maybe my old stoner buddy and the guys that wrote the Big Book are talking about the same thing.
Just like that sorry little voice telling you it won’t last is am undesirable inner resource, the Kingdom of God may be that unsuspected inner resource that is the counterstroke to that insanity.
Just a thought

Richard S.