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Once we decided to get clean and sober, what was the hardest thing to change in our lives, besides using? Also, how were you able to accomplish this and overcome it and move forward in your recovery? Don't you just love these questions I keep putting out to all of you? Will help you and others though I believe.

Allan

Yes, very good topic yet again, Allan.

The hardest thing for me to let go of or change besides using was the friends I was using with. It was VERY hard for me to accept that they would only bring me down again and I had to let them go in order to keep my sobriety. I felt very alone and isolated at first, but then found new friends through meetings and IOP. It was then that I realized it was for the best.

I thought this would be hard for me to answer, but I just took a look at where I'm at right now, and so far the hardest thing I've had to deal with so far is trying to forgive myself, and also mourning the loss of that "me". Not the drunk me, just the me that I was. Not that I miss that girl, but I almost feel like I killed off a part of myself. And believe me, I'm glad I did! But I didn't expect a period of mourning for my life....going through the stages of grief in the loss of a part of me, however bad it was. I did a 4th step on myself with my sponser on Sunday and wow.....now I'm just working on making amends to myself and forgiving myself. Easier said then done! But once I took a hard look at my feelings towards how far I've come, what I've left behind, and what I've gained, I felt a sense of relief, and a love for myself far beyond what I thought possible. I've come to see that the hard stuff in recovery is a blessing, for it offers a valuable lesson to be learned.

~Rayna