I am an addict...flying with no wings

all my life injecting
snorting
pouring
smoking

there must be a reason

come on...!

what makes us so upset?

we recover and then go get more...

the life of the addict

I know I will cop **** for this

I just had to ask

[madisgram]

we recover and then go get more...the life of the addict

it's my thought that unless we are willing to surrender to the fact we need to fix our addiction problem, everything stays the same. for many of us it's a conscious decision we make, hopefully for a lifetime, that we learn to accept our way doesn't work. that running/escaping away, when we get there, we take ourselves with us. i was the problem. only i could make that choice to admit i was defeated.

[sandworm]

Hello Miss Henderson,
so tell me, does that Elephant on your sofa every bother you.? What? what
elephant? Well, hem hem, that one right THERE.
you don't see it. okay. I have to leave because well
some , er elephant might squish me. oh, i know, there is no elephant.

> you can't fix a problem, unless you see it first.
< contrariwise. you can't fix a problem if THAT is all you see.

Sandee

Originally Posted by madisgram

it's my thought that unless we are willing to surrender to the fact we need to fix our addiction problem, everything stays the same. for many of us it's a conscious decision we make, hopefully for a lifetime, that we learn to accept our way doesn't work. that running/escaping away, when we get there, we take ourselves with us. i was the problem. only i could make that choice to admit i was defeated.

cant fix

[Caretaker Leo]

DM - maybe we can't "fix", but we can change. Our choice made by our own free will.
Hope you are ok, because we do care about you.

[twelvebars]

I've been through a cycle of recovery and relapse myself. Personally, I believe my relapses generally occur by not learning new ways to handle difficult, stressful or emotional situations - mood swings, grief, mania, excitement, money troubles, rejection etc - I'm fine at keeping the ship on course when things are easy or good, but when things change I react in learned, habitual ways. So my view is it's important to learn to slow down when these things occur and not react too quickly, try and think of different ways of dealing with whatever is bothering/troubling. I've still got a long way to go, but that's my personal view on recovery/relapse cycles.

When we recover, it's easy to remember the highs and good feelings from our habit and selectively forget all the trouble & difficulties that came along with it. If we're truly honest about the struggle lying ahead with a relapse, perhaps we wouldn't be so hasty

[kindachaotic]

If , can't fix, means you've tried rehab & didn't work.

Or... You have not tried rehab & are afraid already thinking you'll fail?

Your life is worthy of you getting better. You deserve to be healthy & healthy.

You've probably heard this stuff already but I don't think anyone can ever hear it too much.

[kindachaotic]

Originally Posted by kindachaotic

If , can't fix, means you've tried rehab & didn't work.

Or... You have not tried rehab & are afraid already thinking you'll fail?

Your life is worthy of you getting better. You deserve to be healthy & healthy.

You've probably heard this stuff already but I don't think anyone can ever hear it too much.

Oops, meant healthy & happy.

[RaggedyAnn67]

DubbleMonkey,

What's really wrong?

[Willcat]

Originally Posted by twelvebars

I've been through a cycle of recovery and relapse myself. Personally, I believe my relapses generally occur by not learning new ways to handle difficult, stressful or emotional situations - mood swings, grief, mania, excitement, money troubles, rejection etc - I'm fine at keeping the ship on course when things are easy or good, but when things change I react in learned, habitual ways. So my view is it's important to learn to slow down when these things occur and not react too quickly, try and think of different ways of dealing with whatever is bothering/troubling. I've still got a long way to go, but that's my personal view on recovery/relapse cycles.

I too believe much as Twelvebars dose. I need to develop and maintain some recovery and sober living skills in order to successfully navigate the ups and downs of daily living without resorting to alcohol/drug use.

Making positive changes in life in not always easy. I feel recovery is much like many things in life that need to be worked at in order to accomplish. And like many accomplishments, it takes patience, practice and perseverance to get the job done.

I still have much to learn as to do for making my life better drug/alcohol free. And as long as I stay in dual-diagnosis treatment, no matter what, I will do well.

Keep at your recovery Dubblemonkey, you can do this thing!

[gma45]

My two cents.....Is it can't or won't? I believe any thing can and will be accomplished if we try.

[summeryoga]

Originally Posted by gma45

My two cents.....Is it can't or won't? I believe any thing can and will be accomplished if we try.

James, reread that (above) over and over and over ... and over. It is up to YOU, my friend. XO