[Ackman12]

Today I consumed half a fifth of triple sec. I had been doing so good. The RCF that I had wanted to go to in Boston doesn't take Medicare, even though I have private insurance. Really bummed me out. I decided to drink it off.

Now I'm spinning. I'm out of booze, and I don't want anymore.

[madisgram]

RCF??? what does it mean? i'm assuming it has to do with drinking problems?
regardless have you considered AA as a resource to help you or do you wish to continue drinking? i used to find any excuse for drinking and after drinking myself into oblivion my problems were still there waiting for me.
i'm glad you posted. can we help?

[Ackman12]

RCF is the fifty dollar word for group home. The one I wanted to go to back home I found out (They sure were sneaky about it.) doesn't take medicare or medicaid, even when they said that they do. I have to get out of my current situation. I have to go home. I was dragged to Missouri against my will when I was very young. My mother took me away from my family and friends up there. There probably are no places in Mass that do take medicare/medicaid. That means I'll be stuck in some dump here, where the residents die because the nurses give them the wrong pills. Up there, they are so much better.

[madisgram]

thanks for clearing that RCF word.
now may i ask if you think you have a problem with addiction? since you posted here i'm assuming you have some concerns. how might we help you with that topic? we'll try to offer you support.

[Ackman12]

Originally Posted by madisgram

thanks for clearing that RCF word.
now may i ask if you think you have a problem with addiction? since you posted here i'm assuming you have some concerns. how might we help you with that topic? we'll try to offer you support.

I find myself drinking more and more. I'm becoming more like my father everyday. My father is an alcoholic. While he likes mainly beer, I tend to go more the liqueur route. I briefly stopped when I was working at a liquor store. As soon as they laid me off (due to slow business), I picked the bottle back up and continued to drink. At one point, it was so bad that I was able to finish off a six pack and a little over half a fifth in a night. I'd get delirious and belligerent. I got drunk last night, and I broke down.

[madisgram]

thanks for sharing your concerns, ackman. have you considered AA? it's a great support system. you would hear solutions to help you on the road to recovery. course there are other means but for me AA was the answer. i felt so hopeless that i could never stop the obsession to drink.
i remember when i was in that viscious cycle too.
i found the answers thru the fellowship of AA. would you consider trying it?