[Ticli-Otops]

So, I'm 15. From all the things that have happened to me in live, I have chronic depression, and it's going untreated. When I was 12, I started doing drugs. It started off with smoking pot, but it has escalated, since. After about a year, weed wasn't doing enough for me, so I started stealing my parents prescription meds, and was using those to get high. After a while, I started popping triple c's, and doing robo trips, because I was so out of it, I wouldn't have to think about anything that hurt me, or made me depressed. All I can think, now...is that I still need something more. And, at this point, i'm willing to do anything to get high, or to forget. I don't know what to do. I hate this, and I hate that it's effecting my life, but if I don't get high, I have horrible panic attacks, and I get really suicidal, and get super depressed, until i'm able to get high, again...Can anyone help me?

[Leed]

I'm sorry it's so late. You HAVE to tell your parents, hon. You just HAVE to. You need professional therapy -- and there is NO SHAME in that. Your depression is SERIOUS and you need help with that. Your therapist can help you, I promise!!! PLEASE tell your parents and tell them how serious this is. Make sure they know that it's NOT just a 'teenage' thing, or 'teenage angst.' They must know the whole story in order to realize how really serious this is. If you go into real withdrawal, things could get really bad.

Please let us know how things turn out, ok? Don't be afraid to trust your folks. They love you -- trust in that. So tell them ok? And let us know. God bless you. Hugs, Lee

[Bipolar1Disorder]

Originally Posted by Ticli-Otops

So, I'm 15. From all the things that have happened to me in live, I have chronic depression, and it's going untreated. When I was 12, I started doing drugs. It started off with smoking pot, but it has escalated, since. After about a year, weed wasn't doing enough for me, so I started stealing my parents prescription meds, and was using those to get high. After a while, I started popping triple c's, and doing robo trips, because I was so out of it, I wouldn't have to think about anything that hurt me, or made me depressed. All I can think, now...is that I still need something more. And, at this point, i'm willing to do anything to get high, or to forget. I don't know what to do. I hate this, and I hate that it's effecting my life, but if I don't get high, I have horrible panic attacks, and I get really suicidal, and get super depressed, until i'm able to get high, again...Can anyone help me?

Well I can tell you horror stories about my own life and how I shot heroin until I got Hep-C and that I have done every drug known to man and have done thousands of hits of LSD and smoked tons of pot. BUT there is a lesson to be learned in here somewhere tho I may be to high right now to know...what?

Did you say you are now 15? good Lord man, I didn't start smoking pot full time until I was 17 and first tried it at 16. I am now 56 and I still smoke but now it is with a dr's script, not that it matters, but maybe you need to step back and ask yourself why it is that you want to do drugs? Personally I don't recommend it, just saying.....

[thickntired]

I'm sorry you're dealing with this. You remind me of myself at your age. Please take care of yourself and know that for me life got so much better as I got older!!! I hated my teens and it got so much better through the years; I'm 42 now and I smoke some ganja. But I try to use moderation in my life.

Peace & Hugs,

TnT

[Ticli-Otops]

I'm trying to convince my parents to let me go to a childrens rehab center. I don't know if they're going to let me go, since I demand that I get myself there, and check myself in. My parents are both hardcore drug addicts, and I can see what path i'm going down. I don't like the life i'm living, and i'm trying to do something to help myself, so that I don't ruin my life. I'm going into my sophmore year of high school, and I already have such bad grades, it's likely that I won't graduate. But, thank you all for the advice.(: I really appreciate it.

If your parents are hard-core drug addicts, you won't likely get the most beneficial advice there, although they're going to learn about your problems one way or the other. I hope they will help you at that point to get proper diagnosis and medication.

In the interim, why not try the social services department in the local government in the city in which you live? Talk to a pastor if you can't get help with social services.
If that doesn't work, talk to a counselor in your high school whom you trust who may be able to get you the leads you need to get into rehabilitation.

You do have some serious problems with inability to say no to drugs. And it will get worse unless you take the initiative to do something about it now.

I am so sorry that you've grown up in the environment that you have, but you do have some authority to exert to get yourself clean of all drugs and to be out of a home where hard-core drug addiction is prevalent. Those things kill brain cells, and
I think we all feel that we need every one we've got!

Take care and continue to post to let us know how you're progressing in getting help. Don't ever give up the effort to get help. It may mean the difference between your living a good life or having a dependency that you do not want.

I admire you for taking this step to ask about what to do. Keep working on it; you'll get help, I feel sure.

Genetic