[DianasClan]

I am in a new state and left all my support behind. i am going nuts and know i need to get to a meeting but my depression is keeping me at home. I am with out meds, T or pdoc and going nuts. My head wont shut up and keeps telling me horrid things and tells me to be self distructive and to drink, cut and all in all it is messing me up. My last AA meeting was in Cali and now here 2 months later I am in Penn. I am so lost. my head just wont leave me alone and comes up with excuse after excuse as to why i should not go to a meeting. i need a boost.

help!
Diana

[Leed]

ARE YOU SOBER??? I hope so. You've got to get to a meeting so you can STAY sober!!! Don't lose all your clean/sober time. Remember how hard it was to get that way? You don't want to go down that road again, do you?

Remember how awful you feel the next morning? Remember the guilt & shame? Remember throwing up? Remembeer making an *** of yourself? The shame & the guilt are AWFUL. Remember how hard it was detoxiing & having the shakes & the craving after drinking? What if you get picked up? WHat if you go to jail? Think of what would happen if you went to jail and were charge with OUI or WORSE? Think of all the legal problems! Think of your life if you started drinking again. You have to think that first drink from start to finish -- it wouldn't end with one drink -- it wouldn't end with three. It would go on and on until you passed out, and then what?

YOu CAN'T DRINK. You are allergic to alcohol and you can NEVER DRINK AGAIN. None of us can -- you're one of us -- one of AA's honorable members!!! FIND A MEETING and FAST!!! And let us know when you go to one, ok?? We're there with you in spirit! Love, Lee

[ickydog2006]

You can do this. I know how you feel. I just started going to metings again (after 4 years and several moves). A support system is a huge part of our system and now that you've moved away from friends you need one more than ever. Find a therapist. I know it's hard to start all over again with that (my hubby is military so I've gone through quite a few T's), but you NEED one. They will also have a list of local AA meetings. So will many pastors. OUR LIVES ARE UNMANAGEABLE WITHOUT HELP. If your sobriety is important to you, you know what has to be done. Please let us know how it goes. And a lot of libraries/churches have an AA big book. Read it. Remember why you need this.

[Bipolar1Disorder]

I went to an AA meeting yesterday morning and wished it had been a bipolar 1 meeting...

[madisgram]

diana, i can totally relate to your debilitating depression. does it stem from your move? i got sober in eastern PA and the meetings in PA as a whole are wonderful and welcoming. it's old AA. plus lots of club houses opened 24/7. so you could go in between meetings if that would work first to wet your feet. hope you'll respond re your general location in PA. perhaps i can help. i got sober up there and not bragging but have l-ooong term sobriety. i owe it to my AA club, my higher power and AA for my sobriety. for you as for me bace then a drink won't help anything at all. it will only make things worse! stay in today, pray, and get to a meeting. nothing self destructive will come from it. only happiness and serenity.
so glad you posted. it's clear you know what you need. meetings, AA. don't wait any longer it only makes it harder. i've moved 3 times since my going to AA up there. i dove into meetings right away when i moved cuz i knew it would help. i'd cry even before i went-depressed, lonely, overwhelmed. but i went anyway. my life as i knew it depended on this. please keep posting. u can pm me if you'd like too.
ps can you contact your friends and sponsor from whence you came? that will help too if you share your feelings with them also.

[notz]

There are online meetings and support groups to help fill the gap. Please try to get to a meeting.

[splitimage]

A really good website is sober24.com They have multiple on-line meetings every day, as well as just being a good support site. But I find nothing can subsititute for a face to face meeting. Go. My sponsor always says that when I least feel like going, is when I most need to go. She's right. And it doesn't matter how awful my mood is before the meeting, I always feel a little better after the meeting.

Please go to a meeting, and come back and post and tell us how it went.

splitimage

[DianasClan]

Originally Posted by madisgram

diana, i can totally relate to your debilitating depression. does it stem from your move? i got sober in eastern PA and the meetings in PA as a whole are wonderful and welcoming. it's old AA. plus lots of club houses opened 24/7. so you could go in between meetings if that would work first to wet your feet. hope you'll respond re your general location in PA. perhaps i can help. i got sober up there and not bragging but have l-ooong term sobriety. i owe it to my AA club, my higher power and AA for my sobriety. for you as for me bace then a drink won't help anything at all. it will only make things worse! stay in today, pray, and get to a meeting. nothing self destructive will come from it. only happiness and serenity.
so glad you posted. it's clear you know what you need. meetings, AA. don't wait any longer it only makes it harder. i've moved 3 times since my going to AA up there. i dove into meetings right away when i moved cuz i knew it would help. i'd cry even before i went-depressed, lonely, overwhelmed. but i went anyway. my life as i knew it depended on this. please keep posting. u can pm me if you'd like too.
ps can you contact your friends and sponsor from whence you came? that will help too if you share your feelings with them also.

Thanks so much for your words of encouragement. I really need the support. I have looked up the AA online site and found the meeting list for here. Now to just go. That first step is the hardest.

Diana

[madisgram]

good for you, diana!!!!!
my sponsor told me one time i moved and felt like a duck outta water and getting aquainted-jan, just do what you've learned in AA..reach out to a newcomer to AA and offer your phone number. they're just, if not more, frightened as you are. i followed her advice the next day. approaching the meeting place i noticed a newcomer. we can usually identify one a mile away...chain smoking outside, pacing and obviously anxious to go in before the formal meeting start. i intro-ed myself and welcomed her, gave her my phone number in case she wanted to chat. i ended up sponsoring her, watched her grow and celebrate her new found sobriety. we became the best of friends. later on i moved again. we still stay in touch-phoning or email 12 years later. just another reward of sobriety.