Multiple addictions

Marijuana -- cigarettes -- food.

I do believe that marijuana should be legalized, at least for medicinal purposes, because it has helped me with chronic pain and anxiety in the past. The more I smoke it, though, then it begins to have a reverse effect -- more pain and anxiety. I quit for a while and when I start back up, it works again.....but then, after a while, the reverse effect kicks back in. Vicious, stupid cycle.

What's more stupid than that? I started smoking when I was 18 after years of begging my dad to stop (just like my kids do to me now). Nineteen years later, here I am -- still smoking. I even almost died at the age of 34 because of it -- developed double pneumonia after a "routine" hysterectomy and ended up on life support for a bit. Quit four months -- but then several bad panic attacks came on, and away I went again. Been fighting to get back off them for almost three years straight.

And food -- yeah, you need it to survive. That sucks. But not like I eat -- either not much at all because of no appetite, or complete binge...and usually sweets when I do that, which is really bad since I'm diabetic.

Yuck.