brain cells

...is it really true they burn up and die?
when someone says they do....is it a lie?

does anyone 'feel' like they lost brain cells?

....how do you tell if they are gone ....?
for so long I always said..."well...if they leave me I didn't need them anyway"

I don't want to care about intellectual skills I'm already disabled like that....like this! I'm already disabled I'm no match for the supreme sophistication of the modern world where the "genius"...is promoted like a God!

I subsist on spirit.....sometimes spirits and sometimes nothing at all.

I'm not a human computer I hate the overactivity in my brain I say destroy more of it ...but I don't believe it happens...character is not thought!

morals are not designed in the mind..
wow!...I actually 'thought' I was gonna talk about all the drugs and drinking thats ruined my thinking!

what is truth and belief cannot be established in the brain...even though I don't know what I believe is the truth...well?
this is my brains fault for freaking questioning everything...

kill it off I reckon...dumb thing!....after all I've done?...according to the 'experts'...there should be nothing left!....I wish they were right...
but they are not

Here are four simple facts:

1. Alcohol is toxic to the brain.

2. It kills brain cells resulting in brain damage.

3. In the end stage of alcoholism, alcoholic dementia is relatively common.

4. While in a minority of cases, Wet Brain Syndrome can develop
If caught early enough it can be treated and a full recovery can occur. But if allowed to progress it will cause permanent brain damage and can kill (about 20% of Wernicke-Korsakoff Syndrome sufferers will die from the condition)
Symptoms of Wernicke-Korsakoff Syndrome/wet brain

Because Wernicke-Korsakoff Syndrome is two disorders there are two distinct set of symptoms:

Wernicke Encephalopathy

This is the acute phase. Symptoms can include:

-a staggering gait (not unlike the walk of someone intoxicated),

-difficulty swallowing,
-speech problems,
-disturbed eye movements

-and mental confusion.
If these symptoms are ignored and the alcoholic continues to drink then the next, chronic, stage appears.....

Korsakoff Psychosis

This is the chronic phase of the Syndrome. Symptoms can include:

-An inability to remember the recent past, although long term memory might be perfect.
-Sometimes someone with Korsakoff Psychosis might not even have long term memories. A total shutdown of memory.
-Fabrication. Because the sufferer can't remember anything they will make up stories to fill in the gaps.
-Unable to engage in meaningful dialog.
-Apathy, sufferers lose interest in things quickly and generally appear indifferent to change.

J....Madi...

wow!...I was not prepared for all the clinical.
I can see why....but I can also see why my eyes are closed...

I consider all that?

it applies to those that worry.

I've been around addiction and the diabolical most of all my memories contain nothing but!

it ruins lives for sure...

but lives can be ruined anyway...it's too way too stereotypical.

where is the list for all the other stuff?...the REAL list

not just the symptoms list...thats way too obvious

alcohol has been physically cutting lives short for thousands of years.

I guess it has to be relative that the opportunities now are proportionate to the opportunities all the way through history.

there is something very peculiar about life ...something that is very personal for every one who ever lived...

nobody really stops anything that hurts because of unfelt pain...

and even when it actually becomes a sensation?

then this becomes the thing that enlivens them because it validates their experience...

so?.... dying alive is the magical energy

oh j, sorry re the intellectual stuff. i oversighted your reference in your first post.
gotta admit your questions are stimulating. i don't have answers to your well thought questions. matter of fact i wish i had definition too. one thing i do believe tho is it's proven that we lose brain cells. i do believe the studies that have been done. wet brain being the worst outcome. i could be wrong but i think brain cells do start their new beginning once we stop using. at least i hope so!!! we both have fought addiction by falling back to our old behaviors. (our journey has been hardfought). it was painful to do so but our obsession overrode any pain we felt. it's a viscious cycle of despair. one u pointed out.
one thing i do know is you are very intelligent so you must've had brain cells galore! i always look forward to your posts. n' thank you for this post. it's always good to hear from you again.
now did i talk in a circle?

Evidently I have the Korsakoff kind to a degree. I have absolutely NO memory whatsoever of my children's growing up years. If it wasn't for pictures, I'd have nothing at all. There are only tiny bits and pieces. I also have short term memory loss. Most of the time I can't remember what happened 2-3 days ago, or even yesterday without prompts. And sometimes that doesn't even help.

I don't fabricate lies to fill in gaps tho, because I HATE lying. I just plain admit I can't remember.

I can talk, but generally I cannot remember proper words. I get 'stuck.' lol That is the most frustrating thing, and I end up sounding like an idiot.

My doctor did tell me that I have brain damage. I'm not surprised, since I drank so heavily for over 20 years and I was a blackout drinker too. I dont' know why I'm alive to be honest. God saved me, that's for sure.

Yes alcohol and drug abuse causes brain deterioration. My now deceased brother was an alcoholic all his adult life. Two years before his death, he was diagnosed with alcohol related dementia. He ended up drinking himself by choice to death. Personally I don't touch it -was a minimal social drinker but stopped and didn't like the taste or altered affect it had on me. I have too many unpleasant memories of family members drinking as a child, so I can't stand to be around a drunk person. It can ruin lives and the ripples also affect family and friends.

I spent 90 days in rehab and got to know the staff pretty well there. Anyway, they told me about a woman they had with wet brain. She was young but had to wear a diaper and basically sat in a corner staring at the wall all day. They had to call an ambulance and have her transferred to a state psych ward because there was nothing they could do for her at that stage.

Please take care of yourself.

Peace & Hugs,

TnT

thanks...

Made me
brain cell function, organic brain damage and bipolar mind= kill my brain please. I believe the mind renews and repairs itself from abuse. I've been strung out for so many years I should not have a "well" functioning brain. I believe there's more than science to this healing. I have lost memory and had to re-learn stuff like spelling words, putting on make-up etc.. It was like coming out of a coma
Anyway I'm exhausted
you made me smile