New Person needs advice

Hi Guys
I'm new to this site so please forgive me if I say something out of turn.
My problem: Alcohol
History: Cocaine abuse, diet pills, laxatives, codeine, nasal inhalers
I've recognised my alcohol problem and need to know if there may be anyone out there is doing something that leans toward amoral / immoral activity (work wise)and how they have managed to deal with their problem.
At the moment I'm in a situation where I have had No Responsibility. I can sleep for 12 hours if I choose... I have nobody to reprimand me but it just feels like I'm going nowhere fast. I've had to limit my social life to one other person becuase I don't trust soul. I'm travelling so much that I'm physically sick of hotels and have to lie and tell stories to the people I love.
These are huge personal sacrifices and would probably make more money waitressing and sharing with students but have got used to this superficial life.
I can't go to AA in case I am recognised by patrons.

Is there anyone out there that can relate?

Thanks for your time
HC

I wish you the best of luck.

I'm sorry you are stuck in this lifestyle, but it is good that you at least recognize it really isn't the best way to live. Are you able to seek out counseling, perhaps through the local free clinic? I think discussing your options with someone who has resources for you would be a good thing! TC