[hester91]

simetimes it seems that drinking makes me more productive. It keeps me on my toes, so as to not make mistakes . it forces me to be more aware of what im doing or that i have to be more alert b/c I know that im just on the edge of buzzed and drunk or sloppy drunk. A challenge to myself???

[Travelinglady]

If you say so......I've never heard of drinking being that way. I'll be blunt: Is this an excuse to keep drinking? That's what it strikes me as being.

[layla11]

Hi you may think that drinking is doing all these things for you, in reality if you didn't drink you could do all these things and probably do them better then you thought you could. Trying to be on guard and on your toes is really only distracting. Example, not referring to you in this scenario okay, but consider the drunk driver that kills someone on the road. Sometimes they are buzzed drivers,(do they think they are not capable of driving?) if you get into any kind of accident you will go to jail, even if its someone else's fault. Have you considered that maybe your not on top of things? In life there are a lot of things that are out of are control, but there are things that we can control, like doing the things we can do and doing them well. One other thing, you may think that others don't know that your buzzed or drunk, but most the time they do and you will find only problems eventually, if you continue to drink. Don't be one of those people that wake up one day scratching their head and wondering what happened, and then realizing after its to late that it was the drinking that caused it.

[Leed]

Drinking doesn't keep you on your toes. This is just a cop-out. It's just an excuse to keep on drinking. Sorry, but I'm not buying. it.

I used to make all kinds of excuses to keep drinking. I had loads of them. Until one day I looked into the mirror and saw a sloppy, disgusting drunk looking me in the face. Even THAT didn't stop me from drinking.

You know what stopped me? My husband and i were sitting in a bar, and he was drinkiing and so was I. He turned and looked at me and said "You're a rotten mother." (Like HE was such a great father?) Anyway, that DID it. I left the bar, went home and called AA. That was the beginning of a new life.

Not long after that I filed for divorce too!!! So I got divorced and sober at the same time.

[layla11]

Yeah, I remember being teated like crap in the bars, it started off okay, then the alcohol started taking its toll on me. I was insulted a lot and I wasn't happy. After sobering up, it wasnt a picnic, but I realized most of the people were mentally ill and miserable. (I hung out in some sleezy bars), and it made me feel like I was all that, until I started becomming just like them.

Cunning, baffling, powerful.