[Shardsofhope]

I blacked out last night.

I used to binge drink in high school. I stopped the first time I blacked out. I can't handle the feeling of being uncontrolled like that. I drink responsibly on occasion now, but after a couple of babies, that means I'm done two to three drinks in.
I don't even know how it happened, which is why it's so terrifying and is triggering me so badly. We were home, only close trustworthy friends. I had three drinks. I was cooking dinner, and... Nothing. We were up for four moee hours. I'm really freaking out. My husband's insisting that I just seemed tipsy, not even stumbling. I feel terrible.

[Leed]

Honey, you have GOT to get help -- you have GOT to stop drinking. You are KILLING yourself.

Do you have ANY idea what you're doing to your liver? Your liver right now is not able to filter this alcohol -- that's why you're blacking out. And at the same time, you're DAMAGING your liver. Once your liver is damaged to a certain point, you die. Simple as that. I have seen a person dying from liver damage, and believe me, it's ugly. They are so YELLOW, it's eerie. All the organs shut down, so nothing is working anymore. Tubes come out of EVERY orifice in the body. You're on life support until your last breath or until someone pulls the "plug."

You have GOT to get help. Either from AA or else go inpatient. But you CANNOT continue this way. It doesn't matter that you're young. I've been at meetings where TEENAGERS were bona fide alcoholics! The disease of alcoholism is cunning. baffling and powerful - and it just waits until you take your next drink and then it will strike again. You are NEVER cured. NEVER.

Please -- get the help you need. You will NEVER be able to drink "normally." Try it -- you'll find out.

God bless you. I wish you the best. Hugs, Lee

[Evil Schnoodle]

I wish you well. This is a scary time. I agree...getting some help is so needed at this point. I have had several blackouts in the past and can relate to the fear. You'll have a lot of support here....it might be the time to get some more focused help too.