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Depression's been kicking my butt pretty bad these days. When I get this depressed my first inclination is to isolate; as of now I haven't left the house in five days. I generally go to 5-7 AA meetings a week, but haven't been going lately. It's not that I'm worried about drinking...It's the simple fact that getting out to meetings breaks my pattern of isolation.

Being on SSDI makes it easy for me to totally isolate. I guess I'm just writing to whine, as the solution is "simple" -- just get my butt out of the door to get to meetings whether I feel like talking, or not. I haven't, however, showered in almost a week & I really don't feel like I can talk at meetings. I always feel guilty when I simply pass. I guess I'm just writing to complain about being stuck & isolated.

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Have you told your Doctor about this, because you just need a med adjustment?

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Thanks for the suggestion, but since I'm bipolar the pdoc hesitates to increase my antidepressant too much as it may send me into a mixed or hypo state. I just have to force myself to get out, but I feel cornered right now. Folks from my meetings have been calling me, but I haven't been answering my phone. The answer (getting my butt out of the house) seems so simple...yet rather impossible these days. I've just got to force myself.