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Nov 17, 2013, 07:01 PM
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So I've been drinking tonight (why this is not going to be long or involved) but my ex is over (we're trying to be friends) and my current (my ex doesn't know) and we're playing a game. We have game nights with our friends and this is the main way we are staying friends. My "sponsor" or as close to is here too.
It was going good but something my ex said triggered me (we were cooking together) and so I took some (only a very little bit but I've been drinking) of the "stuff I shouldn't have". I gave in and have been trying to get through the withdrawal phase which was okay but now I gave in and I feel like ****. Can someone tell me I'm still a good person even though my will is ****** and I lied to my parter and my current about it (she walked in right as I took it but I said I was taking my normal meds). It's 7 now and my ex and one of my friends is leaving at 9. My sponsor is staying later, and my partner might be as well. I need a hug and I want this to be over and I want to be sober but I also want to be high and drowned out the world. I hate this.
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#2
Nov 17, 2013, 07:25 PM
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You're not a bad person. You just made a bad choice. Just fess up to your sponsor and start new tomorrow. One day at a time.
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Nov 17, 2013, 08:18 PM
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I'm scared everyone will be mad at me and I don't want to make a scene.
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"You can't hop a jet plain like you can a freight train" - Gordon Lightfoot "It starts with light, and ends with light, and in between there is darkness" -I forget "Got to kick at the darkness 'til it bleeds daylight" -BNL
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Nov 17, 2013, 09:10 PM
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Everyone slips up now and then and that's ok it's normal. It is also ok to be scared,This is all part of being human and it's also part of healing. Being honest with yourself and the people that care about you is the best thing to do. They may not like your choice but they will help you, and respect you for having the courage to be honest. Try to remember you are not perfect and nor is anyone else. Mistakes are how we learn life's little lessons.
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