Marijuana?!

Weed has caused me SEVERE psychosis on 3 different occasions, to the point where I couldn't see the real world at all through my eyes and spoke only word salad and thought I would be swimming through alternate realities for eternity and would have to cope with the fact that I had lost my mind and would be insane for eternity in a sequence of unfamiliar universes many of which were like a horror movie. My friends should have taken me to the hospital but they shoved me in a cab and sent me home with some cash. I have no recollection of how I ended up in my bed when I woke up the next morning feeling 100% dissociated and remained that way for the next week.

Other times I smoked weed all day every day and I was fine but it made me lazy and probably contributed to my depression and antisocial tendencies. Weed is just not for me. I've sworn off it. Even though it's about to become legal recreationally in my state.

A.A. Big Book, page 417 – Acceptance is the answer to ALL of my problems today.

I needed that. I relapsed Saturday night but I started over Sunday morning. Was beating myself up over it but I am working on accepting and just moving forward. Thanks.

when i was IP i met someone with paranoid schizophrenia that had been triggered or caused by smoking weed... he was so, so ill, and it made me see how awful the effects of weed, in particular skunk, can be. i will never smoke it for that reason.