[splitimage]

I just need a bit of a vent. It seems like since I've stopped drinking, I just want to cry all of the time - even if I don't have any reason to. It's like all of the emotions that I've numbed with booze are coming up all at once and they're all negative. I'm having trouble believing that I'll ever be happy and optomistic again.

As an aside, I'm currently in-patient in a psychiatric hospital being treated for depression and my thoughts of suicide and self harm. Never thought I'd wind up here. But earlier this week we had an incident on the unit where 3 of the patients came back from a pass drunk. It was pretty ugly, but it was a really good reminder for me on why I want to stay sober.

---splitimage

[Raynaadi]

I remember those days of crying all the time....in fact they've been starting again lol. I remember bringing this up in a meeting once and they all said it was a miracle I could cry and feel emotions. They were right. For so long we numbed everything out. It makes sense that the emotions will bubble over! As you continue to stay sober and work the steps on this path that you've chosen, the happiness will trickle in, I guarantee it.

You've also got the added depression to battle here. So you're definitely on that emotional roller coaster. Good for you for getting into gratitude when you saw those drunks come in.

Just know you're not alone; we all go through this. And like I said, I'm hitting emotions again at over 2 years, so we feel what we need to feel. Sounds like we'll be wheepy together. Keep on sharing!!! You're doing great!

[DePressMe]

Hi Splitimage,
I too am in recovery and deal with depression. Sometimes it is hard to have to deal with both at the same time. Although I still have periods where I cry and get depressed, they are further and further apart from each other. The longer I am away from booze the more stable I become. Of course, I do occasionally have moments of craziness. The first 6 months of sobriety were very difficult for me. I ended up in the psych ward too—it was my first time. In some ways it seemed like things got worse before they got better—but they did get better! My sobriety has been one of the best things to ever happen to me. Hang in there—it does get better.

[Soidhonia]

Hello (((((((((((SPLITIMAGE))))))))))
I hope things get better for you soon. It is very heroic that you are sticking with the treatment that you are receiving at this time. In time things will seem different than they are at this time and the struggle will be lessened with the tretment you are receiving at this time, and in the future. Take care of yourself it is good to hear something positive about your therapy and yourself. Good day. Soidhonia