Not sure I belong here

I am not sure if I really belong in 'addictions' I tend to spread my substance abuse around, a little of this, a little of that, careful not to get actually dependent. Does anyone else do this? I've been like this for a long time.

You can be dependent on drugs without being physically addicted to them.

If you feel like it's a problem, it negatively impacts your life, and/or you can't seem to go very long without some sort of mind-altering substance, i'd say you belong here.

I'd say any drug use on a regular basis is an issue whether physically dependent or not. What some people don't mention is what I would call "mental dependency" when you depend on a substance for stability and that is my current problem. When im sober I have anxiety and dysphoria through the roof and i can't cope with every day tasks whatsoever. Sobriety makes me an absolute freak show to be around. I become hostile and a huge *****. I actually blame my stimulant abuse seeing as it causes chemical changes in the brain, severe depression and anhedonia. I've gave up refilling my script just about 3 weeks ago and mentally I'm suffering. And I'll admit, since quitting stimulants I've been using other things more heavily. It's all part of cycle that is self medicating and addiction.

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Meh..I am trying really f-in hard right now to be sober for sobriety sake, oh and I'm broke. The good news is my DOC is hard to find round here.