[Misssy2]

I was sober 8 years...and still between 4pm and 6pm I was very antsy/anxious.

I have analyzed this and I know it is because it was around 4pm everyday after work (when I worked first shift) for about 20 years...that I would start drinking.

I had a relapse in 2014..that is still somewhat ongoing...I'm recovering right now from another bad binge last week...and I just looked at the clock...and although I have been pretty anxious today probably from some left over withdrawals...I moaned just because I KNOW at around 4 it is going to be worse.

Also, it is like at 6pm I breath a sigh of relief..look at the clock...and it is always about 6pm when the severe anxiety is over.

This has been happening everyday for over 11 years...since I got sober in 2005...

Does anyone else have a particular time of day as they try to stay sober that it becomes very difficult due to heightened anxiety?

[emgreen]

I'm fortunate that the urge to drink has been lifted for me...One day at a time. When I was newly sober, however, I would have drinking dreams. They scared the heck out of me. Two & a half years ago I quit smoking & now I have smoking dreams! This doesn't really address your question, but the mind is a mysterious thing.

[Misssy2]

emgreen...that's ok....it does kinda answer my question..so everyone does not have a witching hour...I was SO DONE with drinking 8 year ago...never thought of drinking between 4-6pm...just noticed my anxiety was sky rocketing during those times.

CONGRATULATIONS on the DRINKING and SMOKING QUIT!
Inspiring (although, my 8 years should be inspiring to me and its not..I've kinda lost my whatever it was I had - my gift).

[Moogieotter]

Hey Missy,

I am glad ur hanging in there. What is the story of your first drink after 8 years? I too had 8 years at one point and went back out.

moogs

[Misssy2]

I will tell you mine..if you tell me yours

So...I was being harassed at my job for my last 7 years of my 19 there and on March 7th i walked out (making 100k, on a high school education)....went out on stress....and then on March 10th...i decided I wasn't going back to work...and with that decision came too much emotion...mostly anger...and decided...what the heck FRIG them...I haven't had a drink in 8 years...i can have a 6 pack!

Went and bought a 12 pack! And have been struggling ever since.

[Misssy2]

And ever since I picked up that drink..I have lost so much more...my children again, my relationship that never was with the 2 grandchildren (1 I have never seen), relationships with other family members..on the way to losing the house....etc...it NEVER gets better.