[Justbyou]

I’m struggling tonight. I’m have racing and obsessive thoughts that just won’t stop. I’ve thought a lot about using. Even started the search to find stuff. I’ve played things forward. I know what I have to lose. There is so much!! It’s not stopping me right now though. Which is scary to me.

I know I should talk to my friends about my thoughts and feelings, but I feel like I’m literally going crazy right now. I feel like my thoughts will not make sense to anyone. Even if I could get them out enough to express them.

I took a lot of my propranolol to help ease my anxiety. It’s making me drowsy. So tonight I will stay clean because I can’t drive anywhere. Thank goodness!

Tomorrow I see my counselor. Emailed her and she asked me to come in at 12:30pm PST. I’m going to make it happen. Called into work.. Ugh. Oh well. Got to take care of me and get out of this space before I do something stupid.

Off to attempt sleep.

[Skeezyks]

Hope things have begun to look up for you since you posted this, Justbyou.

[Justbyou]

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

Hope things have begun to look up for you since you posted this, Justbyou.

Thanks Skeezyks! No... Still having a rough time.

[Wilmasuno]

When I get that way I plug in my headphones & listen to music, no matter why or what I'm
Going through, somehow music soothes my aching soul, there's always a song that comes
On that makes me feel at ease