[Stuckhurt]

I have diabetic neuropathy. My diabetes is pretty severe. Neuropathy is tricky because I have no feeling in my feet but yet it causes so much pain. I initially was going to my general practice doctor. But then the Federal Regulations changed in the doctors got scared so they were pushing everybody to pain management. It started being on Norco I started on 7.5's then 10's and now I take oxy 10's. I've been on pain medication for around three years. It makes me happy. When I was on Norco I took as many as eight at one time. Now on the oxy I take two three times a day although I'm prescribed 1 every 8 hours. I run out every single month my prescription is usually empty after 2 weeks. Then I go through withdrawals and the enormous pain. I know what I'm going through but as an attic you think about the now you don't think about the later. My wife and my mother have the same basic attitude well if you know you're going to hurt want you just quit. People just don't get that it's just not that easy but see I need them I need them to help with the pain but yeah I'm fully addicted and it causes a lot of fights with my wife. And I do admit is I take my pills because my marital situation is not a happy one. But then again if I left would I still take the pills? But I do need the pills for the pain. I have an appointment to have a nerve stimulator implanted in my back in the help for that is to take 50% of my pain away. Which they will reduce my pain medication but when I'm not taking my pain medication I'm just not happy so it's hard to imagine ever being happy without my pills. And right now since I run out every month and it hurts so bad that I can't get out of bed when that happens I can't hold a job right now. When I'm out I fall into so bad of a depression all I want to do is sleep for the next two weeks without waking up till I get my refill. I went to my pain management doctor this morning and lied to them and told them I was going on vacation so I could get my medicine 5 days early. I called the insurance company and told them and they didn't override so I did I liked it so I got my medicine again but I tell myself every month I'm going to get better but I never do I just need some help learning how to practice self control I feel so lost and I wish I was with somebody who was in the same boat as me so we could support each other because the person I'm with I can't I just can wish I had someone more like me I guess

[Skeezyks]

Hello Stuckhurt: I'm sorry you are experiencing so much difficulty. I hope you are able to find some solution to your pain & medication struggles. I don't know if I've mentioned PsychCentral's sister website: NeuroTalk to you in previous posts. But there is a forum on NT specifically dedicated to neuropathy. So if you haven't checked out NT previously, you might take a look at the forums over there & see if you feel like there is anything there that would be of benefit:

https://www.neurotalk.org/