I Relapsed

Hang in there! You can do it splitimage!

I'm sorry, splitimage. I'm glad you're going to your meeting. Make sure you share openly; there's good advice to be had from fellow alcoholics. I hate to bring it up, but do you think you could benefit from rehab? I know there are IOP programs here in the States. Whatever you decide (& going to a meeting is a great decision), we're here for support. Please keep us posted.

Dear Split,

I have been following your blog and on here for awhile. I used to be very active on WFS but haven't been there in awhile. It's an incredible place.

Please don't beat yourself up over drinking but you MUST give it all you've got to stop. Alcohol knows you've taken time off but it kicks in just as strongly no matter how long you've been sober. That is the evil of it. The last time I drank I got another DUI which really affected my life. I deserved it and deserve the consequences but boy does it suck. I also felt like I was going to die for the first time. I could tell I was killing myself. The thought of it being worse helps keep me sober.

I havent had a drink in 2 1/2 years and I still take Antabuse. It's a no-brainer for me because I don't want to die and I don't want to kill anyone if I decide to drive again. I don't want to go to jail (again). It's my "lock" keeping alcohol away. Why mess with it when it's a sure bet for me. That being said it has no side-effects for me. I might look at your reasoning for not getting back on it. Write those things down and be honest with yourself.

You CAN do this. Don't give up on yourself and your sober life. Do you have someone you trust who can be there for you? Stay on here and WFS. I did online AA meetings even though AA isn't really my thing.

I'm honestly thinking about you. You have the strength to beat this and continue your life. This can be a blip ok? Just think, you are at a point where you still have choices.

Take Care!!!

Also please PM me any time!

I was wondering if relapsing might be related to something going on in your life.

Bill3 - absolutely it's related to my life. I've had to go on social assistance and am in the process of applying for disability per my Dr's instructions. I feel useless and bored, not a good combination. Not an excuse, but it was enough to make me want to numb out.

But I made it through day 1 yesterday, nursing gingerale and eating minimally. I'm feeling almost back to human today. So I think today will mostly be a day of recovery, although I may try to do laundry, and I have to empty out the kitchen cupboards because they're coming to spray for roaches tomorrow.

See my addictions Dr. tomorrow.

splitimage

Keep us posted, Splitimage! I believe in you.

Thanks Glamslam, but I relapsed again this past weekend. I'm now on day 3, trying desperately hard to get my life back on a sober footing.

splitimage

How are you doing, splits? Saw you hadn't posted here for a few days...

Thanks for asking childofchaos.

I posted in the updates thread too, but today is day 7 for me sober. Happy I made it back to a week.

splitimage

Good job splitimage! ☺

Yay! Way to go!