Daily addictions check in #[two]

**** am craving badly dont want my husband to know am struggling he already stressed

Do you have a sober/clean friend you could call and talk to. Or make an excuse and go to a meeting.

Hang in there. Cravings eventually pass..

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I remember from the other thread you started that you have two years sober. I think a lot of people have phantom cravings years after they stop drinking. You're not alone. There are a pretty tight group of sober/clean people on this thread. Keep reading the threads here (though they're sometimes sparce.)

I think splits hit it right on the head. Talking to other sober people seems to help me - I'm not sure why. You don't have to buy into all (or even half) af the AA program. Just go to a meeting & listen. They don't make you commit to anything...except having a desire to stop drinking. Blah, blah, blah...Well, it works for me when I can get out of the house to go.

Well its my birthday am 41 and i feel like i have done nothing good with my life so far but that is going to change going to NA as soon am able to... i havent touched anything today in fact the strongest thing av touched is coffee Looking to talk to others here and i hope that you are all doing well tonight ...i just wanted to say keep going keep strong and kick that ****ing addictions butt

Going to any kind of meeting to meet others helps. It helps me realize I am not alone and not a terrible person.

The days are adding up. One of my Christmas presents will be 6 months of sobriety.

I'm supremely grateful that this year, I won't be lining up with hundreds of other people at the liquor store to stock up on booze for Christmas, and obsessing over whether I was buying enough to get me through Christmas and Boxing Day.

Instead I can have a nice relaxing day talking with friends, doing some cleaning, and knitting. I may even bake shortbread cookies.

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They don't start selling booze here until 12:00 Christmas day. I remember one time I was ticked off because I wanted to stock up on beer (& probably have a few) before noon. Kind of a sick way to live...

I got myself a new phone it’s all nice and new with otter box that’s my Christmas present to myself

I would stock up the month before and buy two cases of polar ice vodka then take a cab home then pay my guy friends to carry them up to my apartment

....no one around thats very unhandy...

Merry Christmas guys

Also, 6 weeks clean today! <3

For those that celebrate it happy sobriety Christmas...

I was told not to wake early but it’s Christmas and everyone is snoring around me ick

Merry Christmas everyone.

Well I'm safe for 2 days now. Here in ON, the liqour stores are closed Christmas and boxing day. So I'll get to enjoy a nice quiet, sober holiday with out any debating on whether I should order booze.

And congratulations JessLynn on 6 weeks. That's awesome.

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look at all the distractions I have in this fridge and it’s not mine

6 months!

Merry Christmas

Way to go UpDownAround. 6 months is awesome!

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Congrats, UpDownAround! Did your family celebrate with you?

Congrats on the 6 weeks, Jess.

Survived another family get together except I am still at my moms house, ugh! I was given lots of disgusting things that I’ll trade for something that tastes better. When I get home...

We celebrated Christmas. I only briefly mentioned it had been 6 months. My family is glad I am addressing it but really seem uncomfortable talking about it. My oldest did mix an alcoholic ice cream drink and have it in the den while I was around, but I had told him I would rather he do that than develop a hiding habit.

I missed Jess' posts skimming too quickly Christmas morning.

Jess - Congratulations and I hope you had a great Christmas!

Jess congrats on the 6 weeks and 2 days! I always think as it as a ball and chain on up hill challenge!

I am trying not to think of it so much as a challenge as a state of being. I don't drink. I don't abuse my prescription drugs. I don't buy or use illegal drugs (this last one has been true for over 25 years).

I am not struggling with it. The closest thing to an urge I have had anytime recently is a fantasy longing. I read sword and sorcery fantasy novels. The characters are always stopping at an inn for ale or wine. I get caught up in my suspension of disbelief when I read fiction; I imagine I am the protagonist or part of the group. Then right in the middle of my mental flagon of ale, I remember I don't drink. The regret I feel next is that remembering pulled me out of the story. It doesn't turn into an urge to physically drink. But it is the only time I have recently had any regrets about quitting.

I'm glad you're not struggling with it, UpDownAround. Your mention of fiction made me think of a movie GF & I rented last week called "Bad Moms." The premise was that the moms want some freedom...& the rest of the movie is about the moms getting trashed. Alcohol = Freedom, I guess. The movie didn't disturb me, or kick off a craving. It just seemed foreign...which is good.

i ****ed up back to zero

I am sorry astral..to tell ya truth I almost said screw it and drank too but I stopped at it...

PAWS seems to be going away a couple months sober and I'm starting to feel again instead of numbing myself from life's problems.

The psychedelic good and bad trips made me accept that it's ok to feel.

My 2018 New Years resolution is to be sober.