[mel4]

I knew this would happen.

For the past few weeks/months ive been fooling around with that devilish white powder. I'm coming down right now, and i try keep focusing on the fact that my way-of-looking at life is completely altered by this crap, but it is so difficult to just keepin on truckin on with work and school and such. Im longing for something. Im craving something. Im craving my drug, but in actuality, im craving something entirely different. I just dont know what that is yet. I just want to be as sky high as I was the first few times, but i know that can never happen. I have more, and its calling my name, but i dont know what Im going to do.

melissa

[Cyran0]

mel, you came here asking for help. I applaud that. But I can't tell you to stop using. I know it wouldn't do any good. I was a coke head and nobody could tell me to stop. I had to make that choice on my own.

I hope you decide to clean up because this drug has a very high toll for most people. For some it costs them their lives. For others, they lose the school or job that you feel you can't do without being high. I went bankrupt and nearly lost my family.

It's hard to say no to that powder when you know it's sitting right there. But if you decide to clean up, get away from the drug and get into treatment. You'll find links at the bottom of this page.

Good luck.

Cyran0

[DePressMe]

Hey melissa....I have been where you are at now. Its tough to decide whether or not you really want to get clean and and if you are willing to do what it takes to get clean. You can keep chasing that magical high, but you know you will never catch it again.

I am glad I am clean--it was the best decision I ever made. It is not easy, but it is a battle worth fighting. Today, I am in control of my life and I have even found some happiness. My world is a much better place.

I hope you decide to get clean--we are here to help you--if that is what you decide you want....you really can do it.